The worst possible feeling is being sad and not being able to tell anybody why or what they can do to help you be happier overall. For all I know, they're probably going through the same thing. Maybe a lot of my friends are sad and aren't telling people. The main thing that you can't expect your friends to be on top of is your own happiness.
I wish I could tell people, but I just can't. It's tragic and most of all, private. The most I can do is distract myself from whatever it is. Even though the topic keeps coming up in everyday conversation. Or at least factors that effect the issue. Few people have even noticed that I'm growing more and more depressed. I plaster on that fake-smile and it's gone. As easy as that. Or else I just act as if nothing's the matter.
They tell you to fake it until you make it, but sometimes that can get exhausting. Usually, when I get home, I distract myself by sitting alone with Facebook, video games, and homework. Whatever can get me not to think about what's on my mind, I'll do it.
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