Lil Miss Epic's 4th Anniversary: Life Changes and That's OK!

Back in high school (never thought I'd be able to say that,) I thought for sure that I would struggle a ton here. I thought that I wouldn't be able to adjust at all. However, that's quite the opposite of what's happened during my nine weeks here in college. Throughout this week I've been thinking about what I should write about for my blog's fourth anniversary post. I think the most special thing I could write about this year would be the blessings that come with change.

I relied so much on my parents, and I still do but not as much. When I came up here, I was scared that I wouldn't have as close of a relationship with my family back home, but I find that the time away from them has brought me to appreciate them more fully and acknowledge the things they taught me growing up. Some people don't know how to do their own laundry, wash their own dishes, or even sweep the floor. Since I grew up under my parent's instruction, the transition of learning what to do wasn't really that big.

At first I just pretended that I was home alone, but that didn't actually work out well considering I have all of these roommates that are all around me. I was super scared to socialize with them at first because I didn't know if we would get along or hate each other or something. Then, I started pretending that I was on some weird school field trip like the Seattle Music Tour back in early 2015. That didn't exactly work either considering we didn't do any sight-seeing, and I didn't really have any friends up here. I've learned a lot since coming here. I've learned that I need to learn patience and love others just the way they are, regardless of whether or not they have some big issues in their lives that they need to fix. I've learned that change is okay and that it's inevitable. I've also learned that I'd rather have friendship in quality rather than quantity.

I can't imagine my life being any different than it is now. I actually like it here now. I'm used to it, and my apartment feels like home. Sure, my "home life" may not be the best here at college, but it's better than living in a box or living reliant in everything on my parents. College is interesting. You meet new people with the intention of actually being friends, not just because you sit by them. Professors actually treat you like adults. Anyone that's way older than you doesn't treat you any different because we're all in different categories when it comes to our degree. We're different but equal in the sight of others. There's no extreme judgment here, at least none that really comes to mind.

Things have changed for me and that's okay. I'm still the same person. I'm on my way to bigger and better things. I have a plan now and I'm determined to do something with it. Whether or not that plan leads to success or failure depends on my future and where life takes me. All I can do now is be prepared and take a step with faith hoping and praying that I am going in the right direction. Life is different now, but different isn't bad.