I thought I knew and learned a bunch walking into third trimester, about myself, of course. But wow. I'm learning so much and it's just the first week. I've learned tons about myself and what it takes to have faith and take that big step of finding my own power in a world of give and take. Life in it of itself is super challenging and it's not going to get any easier for me, or anybody else for that matter. I'll meet people along the way that will make the journey more bearable, but I know that Satan will never stop trying to make me fail.It's hard seeing old friends slip away from you, especially when they've been there with you all along. You end up growing out of each other or parting ways in general. It gets a little too much. But it'll be all okay because there is one who will have your back at all times and in all places. Heavenly Father has our back. You don't have to be afraid when he's the one who's in control of what's happening, aside from other's free agency. I've learned a ton this week about that.
Looking back it's really hard seeing who I've lost, who I've forgotten, and who I'm going to have to say goodbye to. However, I know that God will be there to hold my hand as long as I'm willing to take that first step forward. I've got those friends that promise to be there for a lifetime, and I promise to do the same for them, too. But in an eternal perspective, it's more important to be with him. I've had so many friends who have promised to be there always, even when times get tough, but time and time again our friendship has broken apart.
People may say that I've just got trust issues when it comes to that, but I've learned a thing or two about losing people and I've got the blog posts to testify of that. Looking at my parents is also a pretty good example of showing that we won't have the same friends as we grow older. There's a few that stick around if you're lucky, but it's never the same once you get out of high school and especially when you get out of college and start settling down.
Whether it be in your memories, your friendship, or your companionship, hold onto me. Hold onto the lessons we've learned together. Hold onto the good times we've shared. Hold onto everything we had then and now. These are the times we'll look back on and think about how if we did the slightest thing different, we could've ended up in a different place. Please remember, you're not alone. You've always got your memories.
