November's Resolution

Alrighty then! It's been a while since something actually really interesting and amazing has happened!! I'm going to treat this kind of like a follow-up post to "Why? It's A Long Story..." I'll be referring On&Off to most of my other things referring as to why something may be really important. So pretty much, this post is like a sequel to that of which happened in November of last year.
 

Seriously. DON'T READ THIS IF YOU HAVEN'T READ MY BLOG BEFORE.

Okay, so as I said in my post "Why? It's A Long Story..." I came to a conclusion that I hated three specific people.  As most of you know, one of the people I classified under "hate" was one of my friends, Coleman. He said very cruel words to me, and they offended. I shall not repeat them if you're not interested, but if you are, then go to "Why? It's A Long Story..." Recently, Coleman decided to apologize. He said that he had been thinking about our argument back in November, and realized that it was really dumb, and that we shouldn't have been fighting over a dumb girl. As many of you may know, this girl has been back-stabbing, and lying to pretty much everyone she knows. Coleman told me about his back-story as to why they stopped talking, and of course I felt pretty bad. However, it wasn't her who decided that they shouldn't talk. It was Coleman, who I'm proud of for having standards as high as he does. He basically told her that he wasn't going to take any of her crap, and left her, and now they aren't talking. Way to go, Coleman! I'm accepting his apology not because all must be forgiven, but because I understand the crap he's been through with her, and I understand that it's not his fault for believing a lie, and accusing me of doing something that I hadn't done. He only chose what he believed to be true. Since he liked her a lot, he decided to believe her, and that she was right, which later bit him in the butt. 

Another post I kind of want to reference back to is "People Can Change" To be perfectly honest, I've been thinking about this post, and have been thinking that I'm kind of a hypocrite, because let's face it, a ton of people around are starting to say that Phebe isn't that bad of a person. I'm starting to slowly forgive her, believing, and studying my testimony on that people can, in fact, change, and that anyone and anything can change. Maybe it's time to forgive and forget, because what if she was another victim of the whole Mandi-situation, and stuff just like some of the people in our school, including me.

I'm not sure I have covered this topic before, but if not, then here's something new. Recently, I've been praying and praying, and hoping that something bigger than me, a tool, some form of grace could help my desperate need. I had a prompting...that I needed to help Dawson. I know this may start to sound creepy and stalker-ish, but ever since Erik got his mission call, I feel obligated to somehow get Dawson interested in becoming an active member of the church. Finally after all this praying, the grace has helped me...and now my wish has come true. Dawson really does want to become again, active. I'm so elated with joy in his decision. Today he attempted to get Isaiah to take him to church, but turns out church for them started at 9, so he missed it. I talked to my mom about this, and she basically had us offer him to come and listen to General Conference with us this up-coming week. Of course, being Bek, I'm absolutely thrilled! His mom basically replied with "We'll see..."

Song of the Day: Scream and Shout by Will-I-Am and Brittney Spears

Shout-Out of the Day: 
Coleman: Hey Coleman! I'm glad that we're actually talking again! All is forgiven! We've all been through crap with her, and to be honest, I'm so glad that you've decided to be, once again,  my friend. It's amazing to know that even though we've gone through some pretty deep shiz, we can be friends again. Thank you for standing up for yourself, and also apologizing to me.

The Results...

Alright! I had a party last night and we all celebrated the fact that we auditioned for Troylairs! Mr. Burrows didn't put up the results on Friday, so none of us found out if we got in or not. I invited over Mary, Dawson, Maddie, Jarron, and Krista was the one who couldn't make it to the party.

First, Mary, Maddie, and Dawson arrived and they just watched me play Twilight Princess until Jarron arrived. When Jarron came we were basically just goofing off before we chose our movie. We all decided to watch A Goofy Movie, but Jarron was upset because he wanted to see Chitty Chitty Bang Bang. We stopped the movie as soon as Goofy started to sing about the open road, and we all played Curses.

Turns out, I had to teach everyone how to play! In the end, Dawson and I were the only two people in the game. I ended up winning with only one curse card flipped, and it was because I refused to do it.

After that we played Super Smash Bros, and after being beat up and the first one dead, I actually WON against Dawson! I was so proud of myself!

Dawson told everyone that the results for the audition were up, and I pulled out my mp3 and sat down with everyone around me. It turns out, I made it into Troylairs! Jarron, Krista, and Dawson made it in too! Mary and Maddie didn't make it in, and we were all pretty surprised! Especially for the fact Maddie didn't make it. However, she had an asterisk by her name, and that means she gets to go talk about her audition with Mr. Burrows and see what she could've done better. I'm proud of all of us! Good job!

Song of the day:
100 years by Five for Fighting.

Shout out of the day:
Madi Dunn: I knew you could make it into Troylairs this year! Great job!

No Matter What

Alright. I finally got my Troylairs audition over with! I have to admit that I feel like I can do almost anything after that. There were so many things that I was worried about, but now I realize that none of it matters as long as you just try your best no matter what. Don't let your peers tell you that you can't do it, and even when you're positive you won't get in, you can still say that you tried. No matter what.

At first, yes, I was completely terrified and wasn't confident that I was going to get into Troylairs. Guess what! It doesn't hurt to try. To be perfectly honest, I feel like that was the best that I've ever done! Is it because of my latest discovery? Probably! Anyways, I might as well tell you how this all went down...right?

The last bell had just rang, and it was time for everybody to head home. Me, Mary, Krista, Maddie, Jarron, and a ton of other people had decided to stay after for auditions and to work on the school play. My little group of friends, The O-Fam, decided to practice The Star-Spangled Banner before Mr. Burrows arrived. So, as we all sang, including Jarron, we tried our best, had fun with it, and were just getting out nervous energy about auditioning. Turns out, Burrows was running a bit late. He had arrived as soon as Maddie's audition was about to start. However, there were people who were signed up before her that still needed to audition. Yet, there were still a lot of people that signed up but didn't come at all.

Maddie was really nervous about auditioning, and so we all decided to pray while our friend, Jarron, was auditioning. Nobody else was willing to say the prayer, so I pretty much volunteered. After I had put my heart into the prayer, everyone around me started to compliment me and say that I had a way with prayer, and that it was some sort of gift. After Jarron came back out, they wanted me to pray again because Maddie was still really nervous. That time, I made it especially for her and her confidence.

It was finally time for her to audition. I must say, she did amazingly well, and I'm very impressed with her talent. After she went, it was time for Krista to audition. To be honest, Krista did amazingly well. She didn't sound nervous at all until the second half of The Star-Spangled Banner. Krista tells me that it was only because she saw Mr. Burrows writing down things on her Audition form. Then, it was Mary's turn. Mary, is not the best singer on earth, but she still tried. Because I told her that no matter what, she still tried her best. No matter what, we can all try to be the best that we can be, and the only thing that could keep her from making it into Troylairs is honestly just her confidence level.

After Mary's audition, we all just sat in the hall just waiting for Mr. Burrows to call me out to audition. They all said that they'd be there for me, and I said a silent prayer, as I felt myself getting a slight headache. They all talked about what they did wrong, and how nervous they were. Which of course, made me even more nervous. Then I thought to myself, is it really going to make that much of a difference in my life? How will I feel about this audition after it's over with? I'm probably going to think that it was really no big deal, and not worth stressing over. Finally, we hear Burrows call my name in a deep voice. I stand up, and walk in not feeling as nervous as I thought I would be.

The first part of the audition, he was just testing how high my range was, and how low my range was. I'm lucky that I had Jarron, Krista, and Mary in there with me to give me support and I'm lucky that I treated the audition the way I did. I treated the audition like it was just me and Burrows hanging out, and having fun. Burrows really is one of my best friends. From what I know of him, he's the best teacher that I've ever had personally. He's been there for me, and helped me so much.Suddenly, I was comfortable singing. It felt like I had no problem with the audition at all. This is when I realized that I have finally found my true happy place. The RJH choir room. The rest of that audition went by quicker than I expected. He just played five notes, and I sang back on la. Then, there was the very important part. The highlight of the audition. The Star-Spangled Banner. I was completely fine until the last few sentences. I thought about how I did when he played the five notes, and what I sang back. I started shaking a little bit as I realized that i was actually auditioning, and not just hanging out. I tugged on my shirt, trying to calm down as I see Burrows smiling as he writes down how he thinks that I'm doing. I sing "and the home of the brave" and then I come back to reality as I hear Jarron, Krista, and Mary clapping for me, and Burrows smiling telling me that I did amazingly well.
I walked out of the room, feeling like I was a better person for auditioning, and even if I don't make it into Troylairs, this was still an amazing experience.

Song of the Day: The Star-Spangled Banner

Shout-Out of the Day:
Jarron: Hey Jarron, I just wanted to let you know that I felt like I needed you in there with me as I auditioned. To me, you've really become a true friend, and I want you to know that I respect you. I'm so glad that you're here for me in all that I do, and I hope that you see me the same way.

Don't Take Your Family for Granted

Sorry it's been so long you guys... I guess I wanted to share a little bit of what's been going on lately.

With the new trimester going on, things have been very...different. I have Seminary again, and that's always great. I feel like I need Seminary a lot more right now. Why? My brother's leaving, and I have a feeling that Seminary will pull me closer to the gospel, and with my current class I feel like we can become closer, as if we're a  family.

However, there has been some down-sides to this trimester so far. Dawson and I only have two classes together...math and history, and then I have to go to lunch and he has to go to his next class. It's been hard even though it's only been two days. I always find myself just thinking of all the little things about him. He's got track practice for 5th period and after school ends, so I don't really expect to see him all that often. But something completely made my day yesterday...and I felt like I really needed it.


I felt like I was gonna get carsick on the bus again, so I decided to call my mom. So...as I was pulling out my phone, I see Dawson turning the corner. At first, I thought I was hallucinating, and thought wow I really do miss him if I'm starting to see things. I couldn't stop looking at him, so as my friends walked up to me trying to say hi, I said hey and like walked towards Dawson while putting my phone back. We hugged and then he explained as to how he got there. I was so happy. Nobody has ever done something like that for me...or just to get the chance to see me. I called my mom saying to pick me up at the eye-doctor, and she said yes. For the most part, Dawson and I just sat there together, hand in hand, with his arm around me, and my head on his shoulder. We kissed...and it was amazing. He thought something was wrong, and so he was pretty much trying to comfort me. Truth is, nothing was wrong at that moment. I was just happy to be with him.



This morning, I woke up and thought to myself "Well, this is it.." This is the day that my hero leaves me. I won't see him again until I'm 17. I hugged him good-bye...and he gave me his leather jacket. It means a ton to me, and I'm wearing it as I write this post. Ladies and gentleman, don't take your family for granted. As soon as he got in the car and slowly closed the door, I cried. Think about it. What would you do without your hero in your life? This will definitely be a challenge for me, but I'm determined to survive it. Again, this goes a lot with my blog description...inspiring my inspirations...He's my inspiration, but today he told me that I inspire him...and it means the world to me. I love him so much. He's the best brother a little sister could ever ask for, and I'm looking forward to May two years from now when he returns to me.

Shout-Out of the Day:
The Hyper Peeps: Hey you guys. Now that Erik is gone, I'm going to need your comfort. We, as a group, need to hang out a ton more often. I love you all...and I wish you guys the best in your own daily lives.

Song of the Day:
Big Brother Best Friend Forever by My Little Pony

James! You Can Count on Me.

This post? Oh it's nothing much. It's just to remind my sister site, the daily tower, that he's my best friend and that I love him a fetching ton. James, you can count on me. I promise I'll be there for you. No matter what.
Song of the Day: Count on Me by Bruno Mars
Shoutout of the day: Today is all about James! Like it up for support.