Why I Write...

This is my blog, and I'm writing this to all of you guys who feel like reading about the contents of my life. Truth be told, my blog is a journal written for all to see. I describe vivid thoughts and true feelings. When I get messages telling me to tone down about writing about something-- it upsets me because that topic really is what I think about on a regular basis. That regular basis being... all the time. Nonstop. Not only am I doing this for all those who will accept and embrace what I write, I'm doing this for me in the future. So that I can look back and see.. well.. Lil Miss Epic! All the things I used to write about and it's great for brain processing because I get to stop and really analyze my thoughts and feelings into something we all call... WORDS.

Words are things that we use to describe well... everything! We use words everywhere from street signs to modern day technology. Words are everywhere, and it's amazing that we can use words to convey our thoughts and translate it all into word combinations. Heck, my blog title itself is 3 words. Because our names are words, we get special thoughts and feelings to go with them. For example, if I knew a girl named Stephanie, when I think about her I might think about traits of who she is, and the feelings I get when I may see her. Words as simple as Stephanie, could translate into millions and millions of thoughts. Isn't that amazing?

Back to my blog, what I want you all to take from this blog is your own thoughts and feeling, whether it be about a situation I'm dealing with, or a lesson that I'm teaching you. I hope that you may be able to apply something of what I post into your life. I write this to inspire. To inspire others. But, the greatest feeling of them all is inspiring those I've already been inspired by. The acknowledgement that your inspiration will give you when they say they were inspired by something you said to make their life better, is just moving. It's possibly the best feeling I've ever achieved.

Blogging to me is just an endless cycle, I write to inspire, and when they get inspired that gives me powerful feelings and urges me to write more and more, giving them something to be inspired by once again. In short, isn't that what life is all about? Helping those around you to get better, and learning from them how to better yourself from the knowledge they've gathered is possibly the best thing you could do in your life. That's what we're here to do. Learn from each other.

Here Comes Christmas!

Hello, and welcome to Lil Miss Epic! Sorry I haven't posted in about 21 days, but I would've posted yesterday but hey, I was actually vlogging my school day with Dawson for Gunmen's Girl and our 15 month anniversary. We would've vlogged at the mall too, but hey we were too concentrated on buying presents and crap like that. Besides, we wouldn't want anybody to see what we gave before Christmas! This post is basically going to be a little bit of a catch-up post.

As many of you may already know, I went to Salt Lake City to tour with the Rigby Choirs, specifically Troylairs, but I sang with Women's Chorus also because Mr. Burrows wanted us to sing on their songs. I don't know why, though... They sounded just fine without us. Anyways, but the whole trip was pretty darn fun, seeing as how I got to hang with Dawson most of the time, and stuff. The downside is that part of Women's Chorus was singing on Troylairs songs, but they didn't even have our sheet music, so why would they even be trying to sing our songs? It was honestly ridiculous. During "The Virgin Mary Had a Baby Boy," one girl in our choir was going sharp and flat, and we were so worried about who it was, and worried that it might be one of us, to realize that it was a girl from Women's Chorus. Anyways, this unknown girl sang with us on all of our songs, and it irritated me so much because she kept looking over at Krista's sheet music and attempting to sight read all of our songs without any practice in the first place. The lesson I want to give out to you all, if you are to perform something, don't even try if you weren't meant to do it.

Anyways, more about Salt Lake, we went and sang on Temple Square, and gave ourselves a little bit of a tour of all the lights surrounding Temple Square. James actually ended up adding something to my bucket list. Kissing Dawson in front of the Temple. I blush a little just thinking about it. I can play it out in my head. We're just walking around Temple Square together, and when we see the temple we just stop in front of it and talk about it a little and then say how much we want to be together and then wham! Kiss! It sounds just so amazing. James has probably one of the best imaginations for that kind of romantic junk. Haha! Well that goes to prove that I can still fantasize about this little dude.

Anyways, we get back from Salt Lake and I begin to get really stressed over school work and all the things that I had missed while the choirs were gone. I had missed things like tests, and plenty of Homework, and quite a bit of reading. When I get stressed, my back tends to give up on me and so my back hurts all the time. Well, Dawson knowing the side effects of my stress, decides to lend a hand. He carries my backpack around for me, and when I start to limp on my foot, he piggybacks me to my destination, and when I say my back hurts, we sit down and he gives me a back massage. I really appreciate all that he does for me. Even when I'm stressed about all the love I'm not getting from friends or family, he is able to make all of that up in a heartbeat, and can manage a smile to come to my face. Dawson is so unique, and I doubt I'm going to come across somebody better than he is. I feel like he treats me perfect. I remember back to when I was wondering if he really did love me, and I ask myself now why I ever doubted it? It's impossible for him not to! I'm not saying that I'm the most charming girl out there, but hey! I can be myself around him, and he loves me. I can see it in his eyes, his actions, and his words.

So, yesterday me and Daws went to the mall to go Christmas Shopping! We visited a bunch of stores, and teased each other, and he gave me gift ideas for members of my family. When we went into Hot Topic, I noticed these two My Little Pony shirts that I really wanted. One of them was a  Dr. Whooves shirt, and the other was a shirt of the main My Little Pony cast! As we continued to wander around the store, I payed attention to all the things Dawson seemed to like. When I was just about to give up hope, he pointed at a Vinyl Scratch shirt and said "I WOULD WEAR THAT!" I laughed a little, and then picked it off the rack after looking at what other jacket there was. I noticed a paper on the front saying that all hoodies were $25! I found the smallest size, and held it up to Dawson, and noticed it was a perfect fit. I bought it for him, and when we looked at the price tag we noticed I would've payed $70 for it! What a discount! For my Wonderbolts jacket, I had to pay $75!

After shopping at the mall, we went to my house and watched Deck the Halls and The Grinch, while we ate dinner. After that, we took him home and he came out what seemed to be 10 seconds later to give me my Christmas present. He had gotten me the two shirts that I saw at Hot Topic that I wanted, but he had gotten them ahead of time! He had gotten them way before we even got to the mall! What a clever little dude! xD He knows me way too well! Anyways, he also gave me a plate full of holiday snacks... mostly chocolate centered. Again, he knows me way too well. =)

Prosper in Perseverance

Hello, my lovely inspire-rs. I just saw this absolutely magnificent and fun post posted on our choir's Facebook page. It was so inspiring that I've decided to share it with you guys, and feel free to check up on Doodle Alley whenever possible because from the looks of it, it's spreading inspiration everywhere. I give it my full and total support, and I suggest that you give it your support also.

http://doodlealley.com/2012/10/10/be-friends-with-failure/

Anyways, I haven't posted in a while because I've been competing with Dawson for my grades... The only class he's better than me in right now is Algebra, I have a 95 in the class, and he's got a 96! Unbelievable! I thought I was the one who was good at Algebra. To me, it seems like he does amazingly well whenever I'm in the class with him. He seems to just sit there soaking it all up like a sponge and applying each lesson where he needs to. THAT's possibly the best quality you could get from a student. Now if only I could get right down to it. Is he obsessed with the competition that we're doing...or is he trying to impress me? Oh, the mysteries of  Dawson Hammond continue as we leap in to find out more and more about this kid. I thought I knew him, but apparently I still don't know him enough... Which reminds me of a quote...a quote that he has said...about me.

Well this picture brings us perfectly into tonight's subject.When do we really know somebody? Honestly, if you think about it you never can know someone. There's infinitely many layers to them that we've yet to uncover. Heck, chances are they probably haven't peeled back the layers of who they are. Maybe they don't even know who they are entirely. Sure, we've got the main things like oh, I want to be a graphic designer when I grow up, but that never explains who I am. It only says who I aspire to be. It only says what I want to do with my life. Keeping that in mind, it makes us wonder, "Who am I?" I know what categories I fit into, I know what my name is, but that never explains who I am. Maybe the logical answer to the question is... "The world may never know." Even if we're still discovering our many layers and different parts of who we are. 

Why do we dwell on such a hard question? Purpose! We all want to know what our duty is in life, itself so that we can strive to do the right thing and get it done right just to get it over with. But that's not even the point of life. The point of life is to do the right thing anyways and get through all the obstacles and challenges and persevere. Even if we trip along the way, we're going to be just fine because everybody makes mistakes! We're all learning more and more about agency, the power to choose. And that my friends, is the secret to life in itself. Perseverance through the toughest of times. As a teenager, I know exactly what it's like to sit and wonder "What's my purpose in life? Why am I even here? Ugh, when will this all be over?" But... That's not even positive. If you want to modernize this up a bit and say, YOLO then that's fine too. But if you only live once, shouldn't you be having fun along the way and making the right choices instead of things that you'll regret in life? On lives the saying, but think about what you're doing first and if it's the right decision. Will you prosper in your perseverance and never regret a thing, or will you let yourself down because you're too busy trying to find who you are? Step back and look at the picture...Success or Loneliness. Good or Bad. Perseverance or Indifference? It's your agency. Choose what life you want to live.

New Tri New Attitude

Hey, guys! It's been a while since I've last updated. It's been a time of thinking about what's going to come in the future... a time of getting rid of all the stress in my life, and last but not least a time of celebration with my wonderful boyfriend, Dawson. I know what you guys may be thinking... "Ugh. I hope this post isn't a lovey-dovey post about the life of Drawkah." Well guess what! It's not. I promise. The wonderful world of Drawkah is just one of the amazing things in my life, there's plenty of others.

Recently, we got our 2nd trimester schedules and I'm very pleased with several of my classes. Others, not so much. Like Biology! Biology sounds just terrible, I'm honestly not looking forward to it because of how much I suffer at it. But, Troylairs... OH, this is gonna be fun! My first ever tour with the Rigby Choirs! I'm so excited, so grateful, and most of all so nervous! That's just two of my classes, but that pretty much sums up the entirety of my day, I'd rather not talk about all the boring stuff like Algebra and English and well... no. There is another class that I'm quite excited for. Seminary. I tried to read the Book of Mormon last Summer, as many of you may know. Well, I couldn't do it... there wasn't enough motivation for it. Well, now I've got an energetic Seminary teacher that gets me pumped every time I step into the room. Even though I've had two days of the trimester, I'm pretty sure that it's a good start! For his second lesson, he talked about how huckleberries can compare to the gospel. Since I hadn't had a huckleberry before, he had me and two other students come up to try our first huckleberry. They were okay, but I couldn't get a full impression of it because I hadn't worked to get them. So, two classes to look forward to in the day. Great. 

On the more positive side of things, at least I have two electives to look forward to! Hey, at least I don't have to take Social Studies and Health this trimester. If I did, heck... I'd be stressed out all the time. Plus, I wouldn't get to relieve myself with song. I'm looking forward to seeing what this trimester has in store for me. I'll be missing my other classes like Voice Mastery and Publishing, but now it's time to move forward in my Sophomore year, and get a glimpse of what's ahead in my High School life.

Christmas is in 24 days! I'm so dang excited that I'm gonna be counting down the days and singing Christmas songs anytime I get the chance. Get in the Holiday spirit and get out of your bad mood! It's time to deck the halls, and it's time to get to work.

Grateful for Rebelsea

People these days just want things like popularity and authority. If I were to give up a lot of things that I want and pick one thing that I truly want it would be the feeling of accomplishment through every task. Thanksgiving is coming and it's time to break out the gratitude. However, we need to be grateful for all the things we have in our life regardless if it's Thanksgiving time or not. I'm thankful for a girl named Chelsea Moore. I know she doesn't want me to say her name anymore, but guess what. Freedom of speech. Besides, I'm not the one who started being a jerk. Whenever we'd see each other in the halls, she'd glare at me. Nowadays when Dawson tries to bring her up, I simply say "Chelsea who? I don't know a Chelsea." The other day I found a CD. It was actually the CD that she made for me as a Christmas present last year. With names all over it, hers had names like "Scootz, Chelbo, and Lil Miss Shooter." Mine had names like "Rarity, Bekolin, and Lil Miss Epic." I listened to all of the songs on it and sat in silence as I thought more and more about our friendship and all the wonderful things she had done for me. I looked at the "Rebelsea," poster that I had in the garbage and wondered if there was more that I could do.

I know she hates my guts, but why am I the only one getting the treatment that I get? Why am I the only one getting chewed out for the things I say, when it seems like the whole school is saying it? Chelsea. My best friend. I still check up on her. She never updates her blog, her Facebook has privacy settings on "Friends of Friends" She blames me for talking crap about her when I know it's true and it was told to me, and the people I "told" already knew about it in the first place. She claims never talking about me behind my back, I know that's crap. As if she's never posted about me on Facebook... One post I remember seeing on her wall that one of my friends showed me said that she was mad at her now ex-best friend. That's the deal breaker. Once I saw that, I knew she was trouble and I felt like she never cared after I read all the comments on the post. Facebook is just a way to either rant about your problems or spread the word of inspiration. The better things you post, the closer your friends may be to you. The more aggressive your posts come off as, the more people get annoyed by you. I truly am grateful for the experience that I've had with this amazing girl. I know that she's different. I don't know who this Chelsea-Evelyn Moore is...but I miss Chelbo, my always and forever best friend.

Explode with creativity and get inspiration from your past. Glow more with inspiration than you ever have before. My challenge to you all is to think about a devastating point in your life, and just write about it and what you've taken from the experience. Write how you're grateful for that bad experience in your life, and post it below in the comments if you'd like! Remember to keep inspiring those around you and be the best that you can be!

Harvest 2013

Hey, guys! Let’s start off with a little bit of Lil Miss Epic business! If you have been watching my YouTube channel recently, I’d like to tell you guys a little technical difficulty. I cannot upload due to the stupidity of the YouTube app on my tablet. Unfortunately, my tablet is my only recording device available to me. As I would love to record for you guys and show you all my progress on Minecraft Survival, I cannot. As soon as I'm able to upload videos to YouTube, I'll upload my most recent videos, which were in the loading cycle when it all stopped working.

All right, so I didn't really tell you guys what happened the day of my wonderful blog's anniversary.. aka SATURDAY, the 9th. WELL. We had a school dance, if you didn't already know. I had asked Dawson to go with me, well here's a play by play.

After writing my blog post, I got in the car with my mother and permit in hand to go up my boyfriend, who was just finishing up his drive at Driver's Ed. I was kind of nervous because he's never seen me drive before. None of my friends have. When it was just me and Reino, I did totally fine. Anyways, I did pretty well, and the only big mistake I had made was I turned off the car before putting it in PARK. I felt so stupid, but I was just so ready to get out of the car and spend the day with my boyfriend.

Even though it was nearly noon, I felt a rush to go tutor him with math. We get inside and check Power School for what he needs to makeup to get a higher score. While he does the assignments, I check up on his other grades and then notice how badly organized his backpack is. When pulling out his math book that was supposed to have white pages and a red cover, it was all turning orange. I asked Dawson what had happened, he said some "pastels" had exploded in his bag. I laughed about it as I cleaned out his bag, and threw it in the washing machine. Even when he had finished all of his work, I just kept organizing his stuff. He wanted me to just drop everything and go watch Lady and The Tramp with him, the movie that I had picked out for the day. I kept organizing and walking in and out of the room on a constant basis as we watched the movie. I found the movie incredibly boring because of course, I had missed all of my favorite parts. Dawson thought it was great! He thoroughly enjoyed it, just as I had suspected. If I had just SAT and watched it, it would've been a much better movie for me. Thinking of what to do after the movie had ended, I started to think more about his grades... Here I am, with a 99 in Algebra, and there he sits with a 52% in the same class. I try to help him, I really do. Then, I see all the other classes he takes. D, C+, A(Troylairs... kind of impossible to fail that one...), D, and F. Well... since D's are acceptable now... I shouldn't be too worried, but it's still a good idea to help him get that grade higher. 8% is the difference between staying with me in our beautiful new high school or leaving to go to the Alternative. I have to make sure he's dedicated to his work.

We had tons of fun. From playing games such as Smash Brothers and Glee Karaoke, we had a ton of fun. With Smash Bros, we put everyone's lives at 99, including the 2 CPU's we had... that were BOTH Yoshis. I chose a pink Yoshi, and Dawson chose Link. After a while, Dawson and I just started committing suicide on the game and just jumping off of Hyrule Castle. It was funny to see the 2 CPU's try to battle it out with still 70 lives. We left them alone for a bit, then came back to check every once in a while, with usually a 5 life difference. Oh yeah, and the CPU's had Handicap at 9, making them super hard to play against. The lowest we got them to was 30 lives, then we just turned it off to play some Karaoke on the Wii. It was fun because whenever it told us to "Make Some Noise" we'd make some weird noise. We had too much fun with it. Especially when rapping because most of the time we'd just give up and go mernahmermermerrrr and mutter the rest of the lyrics.

It came time to go to Harvest, we had my mother drive us there at around 8:30pm and arrived to almost literally nobody there. Come 9 o'clock, people started to show up and the party came in the house. Thing is, nobody was really dancing. Everyone was standing around waiting to dance. Dawson and I were that weird couple where you'd see us and he's on my back and we're running around being stupid. When we danced together, I had him flap his wings with me like a chicken because I can't dance. There he is just "yolo-ing" every dance that has people leading it, and he goes up to lead them as well. Like Gangnam Style, he can't do it too well, but he just YOLO's it and doesn't care what others think about it. Harvest was fun as heck. I love going to dances with Dawson. Since it was a Girls Choice dance, I was the one to ask him to dance with me every time. One of the times, when it was a slow dance, I went out to the dance floor and he just ditched me to go talk to some other people. I just kind of danced around in circles with my "ghost" partner that didn't really exist. Noticing that I was "dancing with somebody else," he jumped in to the empty spot that was reserved for him and for him only and said sorry. I started thinking... Where's Chelsea? I continued to look around for the crazy chick and her red-headed boyfriend, but couldn't find them. This was the second dance she hasn't attended...and I know she asked her boyfriend to go with her. Later, to my surprise, Chelsea broke up with Conner, her red-headed boyfriend. I don't know the reason, but I felt bad for him because he sat there reserved by her and didn't even get to go to Harvest because she broke up with him. Poor guy.

With the night advancing in constant fun, I started getting tired. Dawson's parents came to take me home and as soon as I got home, I took a shower than layed down. Drawkah had planned an all nighter... I wasn't so sure I could do it. He called me and I picked up, as my usual self and we talked about how much fun we had. I turned off the lights, and layed down again and put in my Bluetooth. I closed my eyes a couple times and to my surprise, Dawson was saying "I love you" and I wouldn't even realize until he had said my name a couple of times. Imagining a conversation that wasn't even happening, I started talking to the Dawson I heard inside my head about the weather. I said stuff like "Yeah, I know." and "No." and he'd say "I love you" or "I miss you" again, and I would continue not to notice until he said my name a couple of times. It got to the point where I was saying the most bizarre things. The most bizarre thing by far would have to be, "Do I turn left at this intersection?" It was completely random because I remember he told me something, and I said wait... what? and then asked that. It was so bizarre and random that it was one of the things we might remember most about what happens when I get tired. I don't know how far it went on until I fell asleep but I was exhausted. 

Harvest was by far one of the most fun and party filled days I've had in a long time, and it was very refreshing. PRAISE FCCLA for doing such a great job with the decorations and making the dance possible. I love you, FCCLA.

Just a selfie today, up top. Because I'm gorgeous and stuff.

Lil Miss Epic 1st Anniversary: TOP PICKS

Wow! Not only is it my blog's first anniversary, but we've reached 7,000 page views! THANKS Thanks to Sienna Wareham's special vote for what topic was going to be chosen for today, I'm gonna be talking about my top picks for my blog! Let's put it this way. My blog's been like a timeline to me, for how it's been during certain points in my life. Even though it's been just a year, I can still piece each post together. Here are my top picks!

Embarrassment
"Embarrassment" is the post that got everyone excited about "Lil Miss Epic" as a blog. It was my first post ever and showed my audience my casualty. Complete with a list of what I planned out for my blog in the future, I've stuck to it very well now that I look back at it. "Embarrassment" was a perfect start for my blog. I wouldn't have it any other way, especially since "Embarrassment"got a total of 50 page views in one day, without my advertisement.

The Kissing Attempt
"The Kissing Attempt" showed the first real contact of Drawkah and the friends surrounding it. Not only did it show my real emotion, frustration, but it was fun to read because it was relate-able. Dawson later of course felt bad about the situation, but at least I got a laugh out of my audience. What an amazing post to start out the relationship of Drawkah.

Why? It's a Long Story...
"Why? It's a Long Story..." is a blog-post about none other than the difficulty of losing friends while you grow up. Not only has this story proven what has happened with just one person, but it's also shown what has happened with another one of my best friends. To be perfectly honest, I was missing both of them for the longest time. But, I've let go. This post I would definitely nominate as the longest post. If I wanted to rename it, I'd rename it The Backstory.

Movie Night Memories
"Movie Night Memories" Is just a story about a girl and a boy's first kiss. Let me rephrase that. Drawkah's first kiss. Not only did I give a play-by-play of our behavior around each other, but I also gave back story of Jakeah(James and Rebekah) as a couple, and how things are different. This post is the best way to describe the transition from James to Dawson. From Hurt to Healed.

But that's not all folks! That was just 2012... There was MUCH more than just 4 little posts. This was the opening era of Lil Miss Epic.

The Key to Understanding

"The Key to Understanding" was what I consider the first Truly inspirational post to come out of Lil Miss Epic.I had several people coming to me saying that it was amazing. "The Key to Understanding" was what made me live up to my title, inspiring my inspirations.

"People Can Change"
Looking back at this post, I had a breakthrough. This post is all about how The Law of Attraction really works. It even explains perfectly my situation right now with several people. I love this post, dearly. Not only is it just about the law of attraction, but it's about assuming things.

"No Matter What"
This post... It shows how much I worked to get into our choir, Troylairs. How much thought and dedication I had put into anything. I knew that I would get in at the end of it, and to be honest, it was a growing experience because it added onto my testimony of the power of prayer and the law of attraction.

"Breaking Stereotypes & Fixing Things"
This post was one of my top picks because of one memory of Dawson that was said in this post as well.When I'm at my lowest points in life, I hear "I'm Right Here." in Dawson's voice. It's so comforting, and it's something that I'll always remember.

"September Dreams Come True"
This night was possibly the best night ever because it was Dawson and I's anniversary. It's always fun to just look back about how lucky I am to have such a wonderful boyfriend. The lesson of this post? Be grateful for all the things that you and your friends do with each other. Memories are the best gift, get the most of it.

"Those Two People"
This is my last top-pick, but it's definitely a post that should be remembered constantly. Sienna and Dawson are the only two who haven't ditched me. They're such great people. I love both of them so much, and it shows the gratitude that I have for both of them. Appreciate who you have.

There you have it, guys! My top 10 picks... Of course, it's more of a timeline of the the top ones that connect the best, but hey. IT WORKS. Don't question my ways. ;)

Help Me Celebrate!

Hey guys! I just wanted to update you guys on what's been going on! So, I bought some tickets to the Harvest Ball, a T-Shirt dance that we're having at our High School on Saturday. I recently realized that ALSO on Saturday, is Lil Miss Epic's one year anniversary! I wanted to celebrate but wasn't sure how I wanted to do it. I came up with a couple of ideas of blog posts I could do, but I wanted to give you guys an opportunity to celebrate as well. Give me a challenge or a question to do, and I'll try my best to fulfill your wishes. However, if it's something I would be COMPLETELY uncomfortable doing. Anyways, I'm excited. If you can't come up with anything to challenge me on or a question to ask me, I'm accepting votes on the following blog post ideas:

--Growth since "Embarrassment"
--I am Grateful for My Blog
--Tribute to Inspirations
--My Top Picks of Blog-posts

Anyways, yep! Saturday's going to be kind of a party day for me anyways because of the Harvest Ball, but with my free time, I'll be thinking of you guys and the support you've given just by reading it, or even skimming through my blog. I love you all, even the ones I hate make me stronger and I thank them in the end.

What's the Secret?

Hey everybody! It's almost been an entire year since I've started this inspirational blog! To gain inspiration and be filled with even more wisdom, I decided to read a very special book about empowerment in general. Many of you may have heard of this series and the books surrounding it. The Secret. I used to think, yeah I know what it's like to be grateful, I don't need to read a book about "The Magic" of it all. About a week later, my mom set this book next to me... "The Secret to Teen Power" I kept just glancing at it... Wondering why my mother was getting so obsessed with the series. I noticed how it said Teen...over and over again. It was written for teens! Flipping through, I saw motivational quotes and stories from other teenagers who have used The Secret in their lives. I started at page one and it talked about all the lovely things that we all thought when we were kids and how we could still obtain it all. Anyways to sum up what the book is about, it's an empowering book about the law of attraction. Some of you may already know what I'm talking about. However, if you don't know what I'm talking about I would seriously recommend this book. I knew about the law of attraction, but I didn't know that it applied to everything that we do. The book teaches how to use the law of attraction in everyday life and how to obtain true happiness and love. It addresses many of the issues that teenagers in general have. Anyways, the quote that swept me off my feet was on page 48 of this lovely book, I've dedicated a picture to it.

Anyways, The Secret? It's an AMAZING book. If you're a parent reading this blog, BUY THIS BOOK for your teenager. They'll love it if they're interested in improving their life. ANYONE could read this book and gain something from it. I recommend this book for EVERY teenager, especially if you like this blog. Let me tell you this, my blog posts are about to get a lot better because of the way this book has influenced and moved me. And that's my experience with The Secret.

And here's the new cover for November!!

Here With Kitty&Kitty

Today was pretty epic. I sharpied my face so that I would look like a kitty, and then I sharpied Dawson's face so that we'd match. We were so cute together. After school, it took a bit, but I finished my book report that I needed to finish due to the fact that it was due the next day. Anyways, I had things  to do and couldn't attend any of the parties that I was invited to this evening. Last minute, we heard Dawson was in town and about to just walk home by himself because he had given up on his party plans because nobody was showing up. Refusing that he walk all the way home, I got in the car and drove to where he was. Since I have my permit, I can do that more often and come to the rescue. We sat at my house and watched Ghost Busters instead of him having to go home.Every now and then, I'd add onto what I was working on with schoolwork though, along with checking things off on my To-Do list. It was still an amazing night because we made it one. We took our time to make each other smile and have fun. It's not about what you're doing, it's about who you're with. This is why my love language is Quality Time... It's because I feel this happy when I'm with him and only him. When we get one-on-one time. When he puts his phone away and tells them that he's with me and that he can't talk at the moment. It's so sweet of him to just be with me.

We had fun and it was well worth my night. I had actually been missing Dawson a lot more than usual that night and wanted some time with just him and me. Thanks to this Halloween, I was able to get that time. I missed him so much, and it was great to finally just spend time with him...and just him. His eyes, his smile, everything about him drives me completely wild. I could have spent time with some of my other friends, but I really needed this time with him. I was stressed to the point that I realized I wasn't quite myself anymore and I was angry most of the time.He's such a good boyfriend though. He accepts me for who I am, even though I'm pretty weird and crazy at this particular moment. He's here by my side no matter what. Even if I'm wrong, he still stands with me because we're each other's equals. We come to an agreement, and do whatever is best for us as a couple. It's not just how adorable he looks, it's everything about him. Believe me, I know all about the girls who would give "anything" to be with him...but I would do everything. I would do the impossible. I would cheat death to be with him, if it were my decision. He's mine. A message to all the girls out there that are crushing on him, he won't be leaving ANY time soon. We've been together for 13 months and 11 days as of today, so get over it.

This is especially for Dawson... This is for all the work we both have put into the beautiful relationship that has grown to be us. Drawkah used to be just an idea of happiness, but now it's much more. Drawkah is more than we could have ever imagined. Drawkah is true love, true happiness, and in all honesty, the best thing that has ever come into my life.

Why I DO NOT Do Vlogs

Hello, my wonderful viewers. My YouTube channel? Yeah, it's been quite a success. I'd like to thank Dawson for all the help he's given me with starting up my channel. If you'd like to get a link to my channel, well, here it is! My first couple of videos have basically been me starting to play Minecraft. It's helped a TON with me getting to the point where me and Dawson can bond even more over things we do and have fun with. A lot of you didn't think I'd be going into a gaming channel, most of you thought I'd be doing vlogs... Thing is, why would I do a vlog? Getting out deep feelings would require me to sit down and write it out instead of sitting down, with the pressure of a camera, and saying it over film for the world to see. Some might say that I like to sit behind the computer and pretend like someone else. Thing is, that is completely the opposite. I'm more myself than ever when I'm on my blog writing for you all to see. I know that if you care about what I have to say, you'll check it out for yourself.

So I was talking to James about my love for Dawson, basically... and I came up with this quote... made by me of course. Obviously, it's about him.. I don't think it could be any more true due to my feelings.

UPDATE: My stepbrother now has a blog! The Dark Lord Fluffy has been "inpspired" by the work I've put into my blog. He's now got 2 posts up as of the 23rd. Check out his blog soon, if you'd like. I'd totally recommend checking it out.

The Dark Lord Fluffy is inspirational too! Here's what I found very inspirational.

Here's some more advice that might be helpful.  Be yourself.  Don't change yourself to try to fit in.  being yourself IS what make people fit perfectly in with their own groups.  If you change, and it is fine, do it because it will make you a better person.

I have this long story and the main point was I changed because I realized that the person I was, wasn't who I wanted to be.  I changed to become a better person.
-The Dark Lord Fluffy

When The Flowers Die...

I love my boyfriend, I really do. He's always so nice to me, and so sweet. Today I was having a hard time with my family life. He was there to help me. I was crying because I missed my brother so much,(today's his birthday) and Dawson said that he knows that I'm strong, and that I can make it through the next year and couple months. Other than a trial with missing my brother, who is now 20, I had a trial to overcome with my father. We got talking about plans for the upcoming holidays, and he was complaining about how he doesn't get me for Thanksgiving, when really, he had me over last year for Thanksgiving. Anyways, Dawson helped me with that! I'd just like to thoroughly thank him for all the stuff he's done to help me. He could tell, all of today, that something was wrong. He's been there for me all day. Thanks, Dawson.

When me and him sang, it really cheered me up because it got my mind off things, and the fact that I was actually comfortable singing with him, strengthened our relationship. He's so sweet. He reminds me a little bit of my brother because my brother will stop at NOTHING when something's wrong with one of his friends. He's always there for everyone, with all of his inspiring quotes, and sayings.. so now here I am.. with my blog, hoping to find a way to match up to him. So that me and him become equals, in a way. I love my missionary. He's so spiritual.

Those Two People

It's time to be strong... We've gone into the dark. However, there's still light no matter how strong the darkness may be. I can already tell that I'm in the dark with all the stress that I have in my life... I'd like to reach out and thank two very special people in my life that have been talking to me, understanding me, and loving me for who I am. Those two people in my life are Sienna and Dawson.

As you all know, I talked more about Dawson in the last post, but he's honestly there for me. One night I couldn't sleep, I didn't know what to do, and I was sad because I felt like he was taking me for granted or something. I messaged him on Tango saying that I had a nightmare. I didn't expect him to reply, but suddenly, I did end up getting a reply... He asked me what happened, and I heard his voice. The voice he used when he was truly concerned. I told him about my nightmare, and he said it wouldn't ever happen in real life. He even apologized for being such a jerk in my dream... He told me how he felt about me, and it made me feel important again. He said "Honey I'm your loyal and trustworthy boyfriend, I'm never ever gonna leave your side you're too important in my life. Better yet, you NEED me and I see that i love you too much to leave you we will never split. I don't care that you're emotional all the time, bay. You're more important than anything or anyone." When I'm lonely, and feel like he'd do okay without me, I'm going to look back on all the sweet things he's said to me, and just remember that he does love me. "Hun I would die for you for you to live, would shatter if you left, would do everything and anything for you." If this isn't love, then what is it? He says he's not even thinking, he's speaking from his heart, and he says his reason is to protect me and make me feel loved, and do anything for me. When will I ever get any of that again? I feel so lucky to have someone this brilliant. It's brilliant that he feels this way about me and only me.

Sienna. Ever since I met Sienna, I knew there was something odd about her that separates her from all the other people that I know. I wonder if it's her look, her attitude, or her personality. Thing is, it's none of that. It's the hope she gives others. It's the inspiration and the advice that she offers. As I mentioned in Not The Breakup Story, she's the friend I've always hoped for when dealing with trials. She's such an amazing person, and now that I think about it, I don't know if I do enough for her. When I needed her, she came for me, but am I there for her when she needs me? With a true friendship, each person has to level out their dedication. To be perfectly honest, when I asked myself the question this morning, who is my best friend, I automatically thought Sienna. She's such an important person in my life. A while back, after we made up Hate Me... But Why?, Sienna sent me this text that honestly made me appreciate her so much more than I already do. I wrote it down because she said that I need to keep it...because it's something that makes our friendship so much stronger. Wednesday, July 10th at 11:32 pm "Please. Remember this. Even if I get mad at you. I still am your friend. No matter what I say I don't mean it if it is hurtful. Positive things I do mean. Please never forget that." That is proof that she cares. THAT is proof that she's there for me whenever I need her. That tells me that no matter how much she wants to kill me, she still loves me to death. Sienna, I want to honestly tell you that I feel the same, and that message you sent me has impacted me a lot, and shown me a lot about friendship. Thank you.

Song of the Day: Into The Dark by The Lighthouse And The Whaler

Friendship

The Scootalooser has constantly lost a bunch of respect from me, but does that mean I hate her with all of my being? No! Of course not! For all the friends that ended up being like her... The friends that are just like Mandi. Sometimes you just have to let go of them, even if they are your friends, because they don't do things that you can be okay with. In retrospect, this is the case. I don't want to be around someone who thinks sex and drugs is okay. I especially don't want that person to be my best friend. Even with multiple interventions, when they don't change, they obviously don't want your help, and I can't be friends with somebody like that... She's gauged her ears! That's not something the Chelsea I know would've done without influence from her new-found friends. Look, I don't know if it's just jealousy or something, but Chelsea is just not the same anymore. She even knows that. They've changed her, and they know it. It's like they changed her into what they wanted in a friend. In my honest opinion, it looks like peer pressure got to her.

Why did the same thing have to happen to me again though? First Mandi, and now Chelsea? The last thing Chelsea wanted was for her to be a Mandi. Every time she made a mistake, she'd come out and say that she was sorry and that she didn't want to be like Mandi. There's more friends out there for me though. Friends that will stick by you, and friends that are phenomonal friends for the moment. I don't hate Chelsea, in fact, I love her. But when I'm not comfortable with her decisions, how can I support them? It's important that I'm there for my friends when they need me, but it seems like she doesn't need me. It seems like she doesn't need me at all anymore.

It's sad... All my friends end up fading away..with the exception of one person. Marlee. I know I don't really mention this incredible girl very much, but she is someone I've known since the days of Primary. Not only was she a friend made in my early years, but she was my very first friend. Oh boy was I lucky when I had found somebody that represents the qualities of a perfect friend all wrapped up together into one. She truly is amazing. It's not just her amazing social skills, it's her magnificent singing, her remarkable wit, and her hilarious comedy that makes her overall 20% cooler. Gimme a like if you know that reference.

There's the one that's like a brother to you...Gavin.
There's the one that's always bound to get a laugh out of you...Mom
There's the one that's rush to you, when you're devastated and out of hope...Sienna

Then there's the one that's always there... The one that you can't even get rid of even if you try. That person for me, as you can probably guess, is Dawson. When I'm sad and nobody can tell, he knows. When I'm crying alone in a dark corner, he knows. Not only does he know, he helps. From a simple "I love you" to a paragraph filled with words inspiring me to look on the bright side, he fills my heart with happiness. Not only does he make me happy, he makes me feel loved. Even though he's my boyfriend, he has all of the qualities I see in a best friend too, besides the kissing parts. Aside from all the beauty in Drawkah, Dawson is an amazing best friend. He's my best friend. He's always there for me even when everyone else has ditched me. He'll always be by my side, regardless of whether I'm right or wrong. He's amazing, but he denies it just to tell me that I'm perfect. He's my best friend.

I'd like to thank all of you that have made this blog possible. Special thanks to The Daily Tower for inspiring me to make this blog. Thank you all for the likes, the follows, and most of all, reading! This is our 100th blog-post so doing this on friendship took a lot of guts because I had to come out and say exactly what I thought about these people. Thank you so much for reading, and let's hope the next hundred are filled with inspiration.

Stay Inspirational

So!! I'd like to dedicate this here post to The Scootalooser and The Daily Tower. I know that now the two are sadly inactive blogs, but I'd just like to an extend a thank you towards all their efforts they have taken to inspire others around them. They're both amazing bloggers, but I've got to say it's hard releasing them as my fellow sistersites. If you two are reading this, I'd love to say that I love you both. Don't take this personally, but I guess Lil Miss Epic is now on her own as a blog. Thank you so much to all of you reading my blog, the anniversary of Lil Miss Epic is slowly approaching us in one month. As we reach our goal of one year, I'd love to hear some fan questions from you guys. It'd be great because I'd love to answer your questions! By the way this is officially our 99th post!! The next post will be our 100th! I'm so excited!

I'm starting to think with each post I have I'll carry on what The Daily Tower left behind... A quote. In my case, an inspirational quote. And to put more effort into all of this, I'll edit that quote into a picture to make it more visually appealing. So, here you go! Today's quote by Will Rogers

As for the rest of today's post, have a video of the Song of the Day provided by James and Chelsea: Stay by Rihanna (ft. Mikky Ekko) cover by James and Chelsea As for that, I love these two very much. Stay inspirational.

How We Respond

Many of you may know the five love languages... Physical touch,  receiving gifts, words of affirmation, quality time, and acts of service. These things make up of what we, as people, respond to the most as feeling loved. In other words, if somebody were to hug me, I'd feel very loved. However, if somebody were to do something nice for me, I'd feel cared for. The five love languages give off different vibes of good feelings. Some are stronger than others. I have 3 strong-suits in the five love languages, and my bottom two are just kind of iffy. Here's what I scored.

12     Physical Touch

7      Quality Time

6      Words of Affirmation

3      Acts of Service

2      Receiving Gifts

From 1 to 5, is how I rank how grateful I am for that certain act. For the most part, my top three, are all very very close in a matter of priority. If you'd like to take a test about The Five Love Languages, then click the link below.

The 5 Love Languages

Now for some words from the site, itself... Here's mine... In order.

Physical Touch:

"This language isn’t all about the bedroom. A person whose primary language is Physical Touch is, not surprisingly, very touchy. Hugs, pats on the back, holding hands, and thoughtful touches on the arm, shoulder, or face – they can all be ways to show excitement, concern, care, and love. Physical presence and accessibility are crucial, while neglect or abuse can be unforgivable and destructive. Physical touch fosters a sense of security and belonging in any relationship."

Quality Time:
"In the vernacular of Quality Time, nothing says, “I love you,” like full, undivided attention. Being there for this type of person is critical, but really being there – with the TV off, fork and knife down, and all chores and tasks on standby – makes your significant other feel truly special and loved. Distractions, postponed dates, or the failure to listen can be especially hurtful. Quality time also means sharing quality conversation and quality activities."

Words of Affirmation:
"Actions don’t always speak louder than words. If this is your love language, unsolicited compliments mean the world to you. Hearing the words, “I love you,” are important – hearing the reasons behind that love sends your spirits skyward. Insults can leave you shattered and are not easily forgotten. Kind, encouraging, and positive words are truly life-giving."

Acts of Service:
"Can vacuuming the floors really be an expression of love? Absolutely! Anything you do to ease the burden of responsibilities weighing on an “Acts of Service” person will speak volumes. The words he or she most want to hear: “Let me do that for you.” Laziness, broken commitments, and making more work for them tell speakers of this language their feelings don’t matter. Finding ways to serve speaks volumes to the recipient of these acts."

Receiving Gifts:
"Don’t mistake this love language for materialism; the receiver of gifts thrives on the love, thoughtfulness, and effort behind the gift. If you speak this language, the perfect gift or gesture shows that you are known, you are cared for, and you are prized above whatever was sacrificed to bring the gift to you. A missed birthday, anniversary, or a hasty, thoughtless gift would be disastrous – so would the absence of everyday gestures. Gifts are visual representations of love and are treasured greatly."

There you have it, folks! A little bit more to know about me. If you're interested, go ahead and try this test. It's surprisingly accurate.

Now for blog business for you guys, as my viewers! I was thinking of expanding a little bit more, and maybe getting better on YouTube, and possibly gaming there with my boyfriend. Thing is, how would I be able to get him to play Audition with me? Haha, anyways! I think something I'm going to stop doing is the shout-outs. Maybe every once in a while we'll have one, but until then, I'll just be talking to you guys, and only you guys. What do you guys think? Also, I'd love to do some fan-questions! If you have any questions, message my Facebook page, post on my Facebook page, or just comment below!

Song of the Day: Generosity by AcoustiMandoBrony ft. Eile Monty

I'm Sorry

So, I woke up early this morning, even though we have no school... I decided to stay up and think... just think about whatever what was said the day before, and the behavior I've had to somebody lately. I feel so stupid now. I thought about what it'd be like if Dawson and I weren't together, and if he were with her... It'd hurt, I know that for sure. It's sad because I say I don't trust her. Truth is, I'm just protective over him. It's just like my first friend I had. He didn't want me being friends with anybody else, but him. I even thought that was over controlling back then... So now I'm realizing I'm being pretty controlling with Dawson too. Now, I'm not saying that Dawson is free to do whatever with girls that he wants...because that's not true. Of course there'll be a limit, but it's not like he'd ever exceed the limit. I know that he loves me more than any other girl...so why am I worrying? I shouldn't.

So here it goes, I'm really sorry to... everyone, really. I want him to myself. I'm sorry to those who I've just ignored what you said, and walked away with Dawson. I'm sorry to those who I've been jealous of, when I've had his heart all along. I'm sorry to those who try to talk to him, but I drag him away. I'm not being fair to you guys. For some reason, I have this odd idea in my head that I need to be the only one he cares about, but that shouldn't be the case for him. He should care about his friends too, and he does. I think my problem is that I'm around a bunch of girls everyday, and I hear people talk about how cute he is and how much they want to get with him, and I'm sitting there like a nobody. So sorry, guys.

I've been an emotional wreck lately. I've been majorly unstable. I think I know what it is now... It's not Dawson, like I thought it was. It's what's happening at home combined with stress from Driver's Ed. I came home bawling yesterday because I had failed my city drive in a clutch car. Of course, I hate clutch because it's so hard for me to drive. Knowing that I've only driven it twice, I'm going to end up driving it two or more times in the future. Due to the fact that you need 4-5 times in a clutch car. Now that I think about it, It's not what's happening at home.. It's more of what's not happening. My mom never has any time for me now. She's always on the phone with a group of women talking about being positive, or she's on the phone with a bunch of customers. Anyways, I've been really lonely lately. I need a friend.

So, not only am I losing quality time at home, I'm losing quality time with my friends as well. You guys... I'm sorry for whatever I did wrong...but a lot of your are just leaving my life. I don't know why... but there's only eight friends that have stuck around... Eight out of all of my friends. Eight out of tons. I failed the friendship test, I guess. Those eight... Dawson, Sienna, Braxton, Keely, James, Julia, and Gabby and Krista usually talk to me and care about how I'm doing, not only when I'm crying, but even if I'm the happiest person at that time. They laugh with me, they cry with me, they share with me. They inspire me...They show what it's like to be there for a friend even when their world is crashing down in front of them, instead of letting somebody else do the work. Thank you, you eight. You help dry my tears, knowing that you all care for me.

Friends come and go...but it's hard watching a friend go through something that's just a life lesson, in general. I have a friend right now, and she's not really acting herself anymore. She's a different person around these 3 other people, and everyone is so surprised at how much she's changed over the summer. Thing is, I totally agree with them. She has changed. I almost never hear from her anymore... I guess she's too busy trying to hang with her other friends, like those three. Of course, I can't assume, but honestly a bunch of her friends are hurt because of how much she "changed" over the summer, and how she's just not the same as before.

Lil Song of the Day: True Rarity by Fauxsnyder

Epic Shout-Outs of the Day:
Linsey Ketchum: I've been thinking about you. About how we were friends back in sixth grade, and our friendship faded after I went to online school for a year. My point is, I wasn't sure if you had changed or not. I've known a lot of  nice girls, and girls that I've been friends with... but I have trust issues. As I said up there, none of this is you, it's all in my head. Please don't feel so awkward when you're with me and him. I want to be your friend again, I hope that's not too much to ask. I'm sorry for getting jealous over nothing.
-Bek
Dawson: Yeah, you obviously know what's going on, due to the shout-out above. I'm sorry for being jealous over nothing. Also, I'm sure you'll see this post. Would you mind doing me a favor, and sending her to this post and asking her to read the first and second paragraph, along with her shout-out? Please and Thank you.
-Bek

My Thoughts Are To Blame

So... lately, my world has been falling apart... Ever since I got sick, things have been crappy for me. But, it wasn't until yesterday night that I realized that we might be falling apart a little bit. It was all just a misunderstanding, and then he asked me... "Do you think we're slowly fading away?" I felt terrible. What was I supposed to respond? I said no, of course, but things just kept getting worse & worse. I started to cry while we were talking on the phone, and I thought it was just because I missed him, but then I gave it more thought, and it was all because I thought he was fading away, and getting out of my reach. I had nightmares that night, and I didn't know what to do, as he told me that he would hurt himself because he hurt me. It ended up with him getting bruised by his older brother, from a requested fight, but it still hurts to see him hurt.

So, I get to school. I see Dawson, and I rush over, hugging him and saying hi... I don't get a hug back, but I just get kind of a quiet "hi." as we walk. He was walking quickly, almost as if he were trying to get out of my reach. I bite my lip as I felt a pit in my stomach. I knew what was coming. We go inside through the side door, and I hold onto his arm, and when I drop my grasp, he walks out another side door. Braxton and I look at each other, wondering what had just happened. I look out of the window, seeing him come through the entrance. He looked so troubled. I didn't even know why he left my side. I walk towards the hall, where he might be...but he just turns around and talks to Isaiah. I turn to Braxton, and I say "I feel like I'm gonna cry." I just started bawling before I even got all the way into the hallway. I clung to Braxton... at that moment he was my only friend. I felt so alone... like nobody even cared, but him. That's when I decided my friendship with Braxton is important, and that I can trust him. He was there for me, and there's probably no way that I could ever repay him.

Seeing me crying on Braxton's shoulder, Dawson ditches his friends just to see me. He just sort of walks by me, and when I knew he was actually going to stick around and walk with us... I clung to him tightly, as I got looks from the people in the hallway. Everyone saw me... Everyone saw me at my lowest point, clinging to him. People had their suspicions, but I didn't want to say why...I just kept saying that I didn't know why I was bawling, but that's not true. I did know. I was hurt... because it seemed like I was getting avoided by the one I love most. It was almost like he didn't need me, but here I was the second he leaves my side, in full-blown tears.

We got to my first hour... Algebra. There was a test, and I was one of the first to walk into the class. The three people that had came in before me, stared as I cried and cried and cried, and tried to stop myself. Keely came to my aid, with some tissues, and a hug. I knew she was concerned, and that she'd be there for me. I knew a lot of people were concerned. I hadn't been in tears like that in public since around the beginning of Freshman year. I sit there, and I do my test, fighting back all the tears and thoughts of him leaving. The bell rings, after a long time of thought and silence.

I see him... He's there, rushing to my aid. Making sure I'm okay, and caring for me...Worrying about me. I shook...as I imagined what It'd be like if he didn't care.. I clung to his arm, squeezing tighter with every bad thought to come to my mind. I felt very clingy, and unnecessary to him, I felt like I was just there...like a nobody, but like a crybaby. We walk down to get a drink, and he talks to Linsey. I blush as I get that drink. As you all know... I get very jealous of her. They didn't say much, it was more of just a hi, but what if it was like that in the future in our high school. I go down to get a drink, and there they are.. talking.. laughing.. having a good time.. being happy. I knew it was just too scary... We walk up the stairs, and I cling tight to him, and we go up to talk to some of our friends. Bridger, Kellsie, and Juan. I didn't pay attention to a word that was said, really. I was too distracted by all my thoughts. I cling tight to him, and walk away from them...as they say bye, I don't say a word.

I pull Dawson behind the hall, where less people will see us, but it will still be a little bit too crowded for the comfort of my tears. I look at him, and sit down, and he asks what's wrong, and I just start crying again, bawling... There it was again, I need him. He thought I was going to break up with him because I pulled him aside right after Bridger said something about being dumped, apparently. I didn't time it right, I guess... .but I wasn't even listening anyways. For this entire day, I had my thoughts to blame...

The rest of the day was tiring, almost every time I thought about what had happened, I sat and fought back tears. Even writing this blog-post, I had a hard time... I was bawling within the first paragraph. If you didn't get the point of this post, it was said a while back. I'll say it again... Forgiveness of a friend will repay you big time.. Friendship really is worth fighting for, and if you give them a chance, they can be there for you when you need them most. Forgiveness of a partner can be hard sometimes too though. The reason I can forgive him so easily is because I love him unconditionally. It doesn't matter what he does, I'll always be in love with him. That's the truest form of love, in all honesty. Forgiving and Forgetting doesn't exist. You can always forgive, but almost never forget. I believe in giving multiple chances, because that's what we all deserve. If nobody ever got a second chance, there'd be no couples on this earth, no friendships, and everyone would have trouble trusting anybody. Some of the longest friendships would probably last a month, and then crash and burn, but with multiple chances, we can have forever love...and forever friendship. Remember that.

Pegasister Sick at Home

I don't know if I've ever told you guys this, but I get home sick very easily. If I don't have enough time at home, with time to relax, I flip out, and break out sick. Today, I've been much better though, because I've stayed at home all day today, with the exception of a drive at 4 o'clock today. If you've been wondering where I disappeared to, just know that I'm home with a very well deserved break. Everybody kept telling me to stay home, so it's a good thing that I'm not there today.

Anyways, as I've been sitting here sick, I've found a couple of ways to entertain myself. First of all, I was finally going to finish Kingdom Hearts, but to my discovery, the Truemans took their PlayStation 2 back to St. Anthony, so that was out of the deal. Braxton suggested watching the ending on YouTube, and coming over to his house and playing the next game in the series. It was so nice of him, that I might just go ahead, and do that! Anyways, I got on YouTube to watch the ending, when I noticed... Brony updates...EVERYWHERE. As you all know, I'm a proud pegasister, and I love to participate in watching My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, and watching analyzing videos and Pony Music. So, let's just give you a little bit of a set up of some things that I watched. (NOT IN ORDER)

And, finally! Our song of the day!!

LiL EPiC Song of the Day: Proud to be a Brony by BlackGryph0n

September Dreams Come True

WARNING: This post will be in fact, very long, and very detailed, so prepare to read yourselves a STORY. I do apologize ahead of time to anybody who believes I'm being rude within this post, or bragging about what a good time I've had. Thank you, and I hope you enjoy the contents of this post.
-Lil Miss Epic

Yeah, so both my anniversary and homecoming was a dream come true, aside the fact of a few minor details.

Drawkah's Anniversary:

Alright, so here's how it all went down. At the beginning of school, he gave me a Mountain Dew Voltage. He knows that I always love a good Voltage, and so I drank it all within 3 days, because I'm not a huge fan of soda. Anyways, we went on with our lives, until we got to lunch, when basically we were gonna celebrate it because that was one of the only times we get to be with each other, aside from 5 minute breaks. Anyways, we go outside, and walk a little bit, and then we sit down. What I did for Dawson on our anniversary, is I wrote a song meant for him to hear. It included, in the lyrics the names of songs that are in our Drawkah playlist that I gave to him for Christmas. Anyways, he ended up loving it. I had written the song in a time frame of maybe 2 hours, total. It was difficult to write a song that quick, but I'm sure he liked it mostly for the fact that he got to hear me sing about how much I love him. Anyways, it was all just very great for the two of us. However, our anniversary was not only about Drawkah.

The day was about the Homecoming game here at our new high school! Nearly everybody was wanting to go to it! It was very exciting and eccentric. In the excitement of the game, after the parade, we walked around town a bit, and ran into none other than, Jamlia! In case you didn't know, but Jamlia is the lovely couple known as James & Julia. James, the owner of The Daily Tower, looked so happy to be with her, and Dawson and I could tell that she felt the same.

Anyways, Reino, my step-dad, eventually comes to pick me up, and gives me some money to spend on the game if Dawson ends up not paying. Him and I basically talk about responsibility and how much he actually trusts me. It was so amazing that he just flat-out TRUSTS me. He told me all of the things that I wouldn't be allowed to do if he thought I wasn't responsible and he didn't trust me. It was then that i realized, I have a lot of freedom in my life! I began to be very thankful of all the things my parents have done to bring me up the way they did, and have been doing. I've become a very responsible young woman that they can be proud of. I love all my parents, and have a lot of respect for each one of them. To them, I'd love to flat-out say Thanks.

So, Reino drops me off at the high-school so that I can be with my friends again, and we all pretty much hang out. James' mom comes in, and then I start to freak out, knowing that she doesn't like me or Julia at all. I felt SO bad for her! It almost was like James' mom was hovering over him at every second in time! I don't blame his mom all that much though. After all, James is the youngest, and the baby of the family, and he deserves to get all that motherly protection. James comes over to talk to Julia, and she, being sad about his mother not liking her, basically says Go away to James. Hurt by what she said, he walks away, and Dawson and I make a connection through eye contact that he'll talk to James, and I'll talk to Julia. All me and Julia basically talked about was the fact that his mom was super protective. When I say protective, I mean SUPER. I remember that the reason Jakeah(James&Me) broke up was because his family doesn't like me. I told her my experience with his family, and we established that we could totally relate. With Dawson and James, all that was established was that Julia cares and that she was there to help, and that James didn't even want to talk at that moment. Telling Julia to go, Dawson and I sat there waiting for them to make-up, and discussing what would happen if they didn't. I had to go over to her, and hug her because I saw her crying in a corner, and then she went up the stairs to talk to him, as he sat with another girl talking. They both looked sad as Dawson and I climbed the stairs.

It was weird... We noticed Chelsea(The Scootalooser) and this other guy, Louie were holding hands a day or two after Chelsea had just become single. Of course, she was the one who broke it off, but she was going around bragging that she was "#livinthesinglelife" Anyways, I sat with them a bit, and when we all went downstairs I remembered the twentieth of twenty-twelve. Chelsea had gone up to Dawson, and said "Do me a favor, and kiss Bek." Then, running over to me, she said "Do me a favor, and kiss Dawson." In high hopes of accomplishment, I run to Louie, and whisper "Do me a favor, and kiss Chelsea." as he blushes. I run over to Chelsea, and whisper "Do me a favor, and kiss Louie" and out loud, she says "okay" and I just laugh. Louie comes up to me basically saying he needs mints, and so he gets the keys from Chelsea, goes the wrong way, comes back out the other door, and discovers Chelsea ATE all the mints. Anyways, they both end up kissing. I won't say her opinion on it, because I'm sworn to secrecy, and it's her story to tell. Let's just say that it was her first kiss.

Looking over at Jamlia, I realize that James is gone, and when he finally walks in, I run up to give him a hug, and as I'm hugging him, he looks broken down... He had just talked to his mother, and it looked like things weren't going so well. He had that same look in his eye, the look that said "I have to break up with her." The same look that he gave me when he pulled me aside to explain that his parents were forcing him to dump me. I didn't know what to do, as he went over to her, and they just sat there, speaking with words that we all couldn't hear. Drawkah fell to the floor, just sitting, and looking at what all had just happened. On one side, we had Jamlia, with the possibility of coming to an end. On the other side, we had Lousea coming to a start. Trying to make the best of things, I basically tell Louie to ask out Chelsea, and he got all sweaty. I told him to go wash off the sweat so that he could feel comfortable asking. I never really saw them together after that, but all I know is that their happy beginning has just started, and they're now a couple. I never really found out exactly what happened that day with Jamlia, other than they are still together. Hopefully, TDT will fill us in with that information, or else it's just better not to know.

Anyway, we get to the game, and Rigby won against Skyline. We literally beat the crap out of them. Within the last 8 minutes of the 4th quarter, me and Dawson decided to leave the field before it got too crowded. Overall, the game was just kinda... boring. Drawkah doesn't even like sports, but we just went cuz we thought we could spend some more time together on our 1 year anniversary. We kissed goodbye, and then I went home to get rest for the next day to come.

Homecoming:

Homecoming! What a day it was, it was so fun! It was the best night ever! I get to Julia's for the hangout and Jamlia and Drawkah had a fun time complete with tickle fights, cuddling, wrestling within couples, and the couple jar, which asks just random questions mostly about your partner. Anyways, I had fun except for the fact, I'd see Jamlia cuddling, while my boyfriend is behind the couch, texting and refusing to move. He was constantly texting during the entire time we were there. I was sick of it, and when he tried to cuddle, and asked me what was wrong, I wanted to cry. I felt like he thought there was better things to do than sit with me and spend time with me. He was texting his guy friends instead of spending time with me. I just wanted to go home, and not even go to the dance, I was so upset.

When it came to getting ready, I took a quick shower, and put on my clothes, and blow-dried my hair so that it was okay when he got to my house. I put on my makeup, a necklace, and earrings, and my boots, and I was ready to go! He came to the door, knocked, and I came to answer it, and it was both Jason and Dawson. In case you didn't know, Jason is Dawson's step-dad. He asked me if my folks were home, and I called Reino over to come talk with us. Long story, short. His step-dad thought I looked lovely, and would love to have me over for dinner sometime. I looked at my boyfriend. He had a grey shirt that matched my dress, grey jeans, and then when it came to his shoes... He had bright blue tennis shoes with florescent orange laces. My eyes widened, as I thought "Oh my gosh...That's ridiculous." It was honestly like those shoes are attached to him wherever he goes. When my step-dad noticed, he immediately went in to get him some boots. He put on the boots, and he actually looked pretty good in boots. I liked it.

We had 2 hours to kill before we were going to head over for the dance. I complimented him, and Reino suggested us watching a movie. I thought for a second, and then suggested Aladdin Aladdin being my top Disney favorite, and on my bucket list to watch with my lover. We got it to play on the Blu-Ray player. I wanted him to give me his phone so that we could put it on the charger. I gave him my phone, and said "Here, this is what you can use if you still want to text Gav." I was so pleased by his response, he said that he was sorry for what he did to me earlier that day, and that he should've just taken that time to spend with me instead, and that he won't text when he's with me. Because of that, and it was Aladdin, I was so happy throughout the entire movie. We both loved watching Aladdin with each other. It was so fun! It was probably one of my highlights of the entire night. It was awesome! We took pictures, and then decided to go to that dance.

When Dawson and I got there, we noticed how well of a job they did decorating it. They had a red carpet, and stars on the ground, because after all, the theme was Hollywood! Not a lot of people came because it was $20 a ticket for couples, and it was too expensive for most people. Drawkah met up with Jamlia, who looked lively and well, and we danced whenever music came on, and had a great time. We heard that Sienna was getting her pictures taken, and we ran over to see her come out of the band room. She looked MARVELOUS. Her hair was now maroon and her dress was matching, she was so pretty! It was probably my second favorite part of the night. Definitely a highlight. She was probably the prettiest one there, and I'm sure others would agree.

Sienna was probably the most important person at that dance. She was there taking pictures of everyone having fun! Let me tell you, it was so inspiring to see her taking pictures of all these people and their date, and saying that she had THE BEST TIME. If Sienna weren't there, a lot of the amazing things that happened that night, with pictures to prove it, wouldn't be here to remember. So, I'd just like to say, Sienna is AMAZING. I love her! Thanks for all the fun!

Pictures!! Pictures played a major role in this entire night of fun!! So, here! Have fun looking!

 "Lil" Song of the Days: Rarity's Big Night Mashup

"EPiC" Shout-Outs of the Days: 
My parents:

I have a lot of freedom in my life! I began to be very thankful of all the things my parents have done to bring me up the way they did, and have been doing. I've become a very responsible young woman that they can be proud of. I love all my parents, and have a lot of respect for each one of them. To them, I'd love to flat-out say Thanks.
Sienna:
Sienna was probably the most important person at that dance. She was there taking pictures of everyone having fun! Let me tell you, it was so inspiring to see her taking pictures of all these people and their date, and saying that she had THE BEST TIME. If Sienna weren't there, a lot of the amazing things that happened that night, with pictures to prove it, wouldn't be here to remember. So, I'd just like to say, Sienna is AMAZING. I love her! Thanks for all the fun!