Thursday, January 31, 2013

Follow Your Heart

Mmkay you guys want me to update this thing. The problem is I don't OWN a computer or laptop so it's kinda hard to update all the time. Anyways. I found out The Daily Tower doesnt hate me, he's just been stressed and super out of it. =P Well at least that's what I got out of it.

Next order of business...crushes...if it's driving you nuts. Ask him or her out already. They're most likely waiting for you to make the first move. I actually heard that guys like it when girls ask them out but in my honest opinion, I think a those guys need to get they're confidence level up on asking that special someone out. If somebody asks you out that disgusts you completely, you still have to let them down easily because we all don't take rejection well. It's hard enough to just say no, but you have to be careful not to shatter the persons confidence. At least it's flattering that they worked up the confidence to ask, right? Something I hate- When people ask me about why I'm going out with Dawson. I swear I mean...I didn't go out with him just because he's cute...I followed my heart and took a chance, and we're both glad I asked him out. No regrets. If you love someone enough it is hard to ask them out because I guess you don't want to take rejection and shatter that little fantasy you had in your mind. If you follow your heart, and let them know you love them and just put it all out there they respect you more, and it is also good to just finally tell them. However, I've discovered that if you wait way too long, you'll either be classified as "in the friend zone" or "stalker." Be careful with all that you do. Once again. Follow your heart.even if they have a boyfriend or a girlfriend it's still important to let them know how you feel.

Song of the day: Makes me wonder by Maroon 5.

Shoutout of the day:
Viewers: follow your heart and let them know how you feel. Risk it because sometimes you only get one chance to let them know. You'll regret it if you never tell them.

Friday, January 25, 2013

Opposite Day. 2013

Today was national opposite day and I gotta admit it was fun. I got to be Dawson pretty much all day and He gotta be me. in my opinion, I don't think He did so well with pretending to be me. However, I probably did horrible too. Anywayys. Chelsea brought her camera to school and then told Dawson and I to kiss, and that she'd take a pic and that we weren't allowed yo stop until she said so. So there I am kissing Dawson, she gets the picture but she keeps saying keep going keep going or whatever and don't get me wrong, kissing Dawson is AMAZING and all but with all these eyes watching it got a little awkward for me. After she said keep going again, I broke from the kiss and told her to shutup. Haha and then she showed a ton of people the picture. To tell you all the truth, HIGHLIGHT of my day. Anyways we kissed goodbye and then I told "bek" I loved "her" and walked to my bus, still going by Daws.
Anyways I'm thinking about possibly throwing a valday party, but my parents aren't so sure I should have one, and I don't really know who to invite. This'll be a bit of a challenge. I don't really want to invite that many people. I might just do kind of a couple thing and just have "drawkah"(Dawson & Rebekah) and "sircus" (Marcus & Sienna) over. After all, I did start planning with HER in the first place. Sorry everybody but I'm already making plans for Valentine's day. Even got my VERY FIRST valentine...ever. <3 this is great.

Song of the day: comatose by skillet
Ohmyheck this song is amazing. I love it so much and I wish I had it here on my mp3. Thanks to Dawson to showing the song to me.

Shoutout of the day:
Keely: where the fetch are you? I can't even wish you a happy birthday you little cloud watcher.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Phases into musical phrases.

I don't know what the deal is. These past few days just seemed completely different. These days  were kinda quiet and depressing for most people and depression for me is not hard to catch whatsoever. It's all just a phase. I wonder what all of our problems are sometimes. I'm starting to look at the "doom and gloom" side of life..and I know what you're thinking..oh great. A pity party. It's just that I haven't gone through this depression like this since 2007. (Rachel's cancer. Parents' divorce.) The only thing that keeps me sane nowadays is..well..music..lyrics..songs..feelings that come to life...melodies...<3

Maroon 5..it's what I obsess over the most. I unleash the inner me, I feel most like me all when I listen to them. Maroon 5 got introduced to me by a guy that my mother was dating. This wonderful man's name was Scott. The only reason my mother didn't marry Scott was because she found out that he was addicted to cigarettes. She packed all of us up, and left even though the two were in love. She wanted the best for us kids. A couple of years later, I got a phone with a full keyboard, and that had already got music on it. That's when I discovered my first ever maroon 5 song...better that we break. It related to my mother's life so well that I decided to find the other songs they wrote. I found she will be loved, won't go home without you, and back at your door... I then fell in love with their music. It is written to amaze, and to relate to. I talked to Scott one day last year, and from what it sounds like,He is still in love with my mother. He's so in love with her that He has COMPLETELY taken drugs out of his life. Sadly for him, Reino came along, sweeping my mother off her feet, and there's no way that she'll ever go back to him. However, Scott was my personal favorite out of all of the guys that she dated. I sometimes wonder about what it would be like to have Scott as my step dad...

I have had maroon 5 with me ever since..it's like part of the stepfather that I never had. I love scott. He's possibly the greatest man that I, personally, have ever met.

Song of the day: better that we break by maroon 5.

Shoutout of the day:
scott: as I said before, you're amazing and I love you. Thank you for all that you've done and sacrificed for my mother.

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Q&A Session! ~2.

Guess what everybody!! 925 pageviews!! Okay, so I've been getting a lot of questions lately about Dawson..and so I decided to do a little bit of what I call...lol..Q&A Time!! If any of you guys have questions, comment it up on either my facebook page, or any of my blog posts about what you guys would like to know! Okay, here we go!

How come he never texted you?!
His siblings hide his phone from him. -_-


What happened at Julia's Movie Night?
Oh yeah..that's right! I never talked about that! Okay, so I went and while I was in the car, Reino set up a Wi-Fi Hotspot and so I just facebook messaged him because I couldn't text him. (refer to question 1.) Anyways, I was trying to get him a ride so that he could come, and then all of a sudden, he said that he could! and then he came, and then we decided to watch Yes Man with Jim Carrey. Like..the whole movie we kept staring at each other like idiots, hahaha. It was really fun because I actually felt like we weren't such an awkward couple anymore. I kept resting my head on his shoulder, and it didn't seem like he was uncomfortable at all. (unlike the previous movie night that I had with him.) We kissed like 3 times at the movie night. It was fun. Loved it! The only down side is that his brothers got a hold of his phone after the party, and hid it so now I can't talk to him (except FACEBOOK!)

Did Dawson ever say he was sorry for standing you up that one day?
Haha yes.. He actually told me he was sick and stuff, so I was kind of relieved he didn't come. I'd probably feel bad if he did come, I guess I was just worried about him.

You guys are a cute couple..How long have you guys been together?
Well, tomorrow, it will be 4 months..haha that's like..a third of an entire year!

Is this your longest relationship?
Not yet! hahaha My longest relationship just happens to be FIVE months..exactly. So, if he and I could make it to 5 months and a day, then it'll be a record. XD

Why do you feel stupid when you talk about him?
Hmm..that's a really good question. I think it's because I know he never talks about me or anything, and because I feel like I'm being super obsessive over him, and he knows it. So this Q&A session is kinda makin' me nervous, but anything for the fans, right?

Do you two fight a lot?
Now that I think about it...I think that we've only fought like...6 times. When we do fight, it's about something really really stupid, and then we both regret it. It's a really good thing that our fights don't last long..we both hate it.. a lot!

Your longest kiss with him?
Oh my heck..I don't count! But apparently Chelsea does! In one blog post, she was talking about how he and I have the "longest" kisses... O_o

Did you set up this blog JUST to talk about him?
Pfft! NO!! I talk about other stuff too! It's just that..well..Dawson is a big part of my life and all, and I guess if you don't wanna read about that kinda stuff then you should quit reading my blog! I set up this blog to be open about my opinion on certain things, even if it involves him! I guess it is kinda funny you'd think that though.

Yep! Okay that concludes our "Dawson" Q&A session!

SongOfTheDay: Love You Forever by Ryan Huston

ShoutOutOfTheDay:
The Hub: Just to let you know! I loved the new MLP episode! I'm pretty sure that you don't read my blog, but I love LPS as well as MLP..You better not be canceling MLP, you make tons of money off of your fans, and we love you guys!
James Facer: Thank you SOO much for letting me be your "Co-Admin" to The Daily Tower! It means a ton to me, and I'm glad to still be in your life, and not be mortal enemies with you! Thanks for everything, and PLEASE be able to blog still, don't make me start to worry about you and your posting. XD You, my friend, are one of the best bloggers that I know, keep doing what you do best. Never give up.
Chelsea Moore: Hey girl, you really are my best friend, and that post you posted on Facebook the other day, was really amazing, and it made me really happy, and I was having kind of a crappy day. Here's to Chelbo! Picking people up when they most need it, or when they don't need it at all! I LAHHVE you!

THANK YOU ALL, VIEWERS! IT'S THANKS TO YOU THAT AS OF TODAY, (this morning) I HAVE 925 PAGEVIEWS! I LOVE YOU GUYS! THANK YOU! XXoXoOOxxo

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

He Doesn't Know...

I have to admit..sometimes I feel as if he knows nothing about me, and that he likes me for my intelligence and my "good looks" and that I'm fun to be around...Well...there's more to me than just that. I mean..he can't even tell what my mood is in person. Which makes me wonder why I put up with it...and truth is, I don't really know...but right now it makes me mad. I was pretty dang depressed today, and the only person that actually tried and accomplished helping me was Keely Keele! I feel like she's the only one that will listen without saying that their life is worse or that I need to get over it because "life sucks, and then you die." I mean...I don't really get it...Why can't he understand when I'm sad? I even drew a broken heart on my Science notebook..(and yes, I know he saw it) he was completely clueless. It seems like to me that whenever I'm depressed, he has to be even more depressed, and then I have to get him to cheer up so that he can get me to cheer up, this is the plan that never ever works. It's strange though...he says he can tell what my emotion is over text messaging or things like that, but he can't tell it in person.

All my friends say "Bek, you tell us a lot about your life, everyday!" Well guess what! I tell you about the SMALLER problems I have that aren't all that personal, and that I feel comfortable talking to you guys about! There's a ton of problems that I have that you guys don't know about. Plus, I would tell you more about my life, but I don't know how to do that without any of you guys calling me selfish or conceited.

My mp3 keeps freezing, and I don't know what to do...To be honest, I really need to take it to Best Buy to figure out what the fetch is wrong with it...

SongOfTheDay: Nothing Lasts Forever by Maroon 5

ShoutOutOfTheDay:
Keely Keele: I love you..thanks a lot for listening to my problems, unlike Braxton who kept interrupting our "heart-to-heart" conversation on the bus. 

Anyways.. =/ Thanks for being my fans, and thanks to those people who are my daily viewers. I love you guys, and writing about this has made me a little bit better. Thanks for reading.

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

KISSING CHALLENGE..?

Math: today, we learned about Ummmm...radius and diameter. It was pretty dang boring, I'm not gonna lie.
Technology: I started FANGIRLING about my neww sister site, The Daily Tower
Choir: hyper, and HAPPY to sing.
Science: got a little bit Behind on a Lab assignment we did.
English: since I did my work yesterday, I just finished my works cited page and then helped other students with Mrs. Baker.
Afterschool: hung out with Dawson and we kissed for the THIRTIETH time today!

Now for the stuff I wanna talk about! My new sister site, The Daily Tower, challenged me to KEEP TRACK of all my kisses (total) up until I turn 18! That'll take some work. Haha anyways! My four month anniversary is in like...5 days! =) so excited because I'll get to say him and I have been together for a third of a year. =)

Song of The Day: Intuition by Selena Gomez

Shout out of the Day:
Krista Philips: oh my heck! I'm so THRILLED that you're a daily reader. Love you. <3 ^^

Love you guys! Don't forget to like my facebook page. ^^ <3

Monday, January 14, 2013

Cover Photos!

I have a problem, I have to confess...about an attraction that I can't repress. I'm totally taken, and often times shaken, please somebody help me..I'm IN..GREAT...DISTRESS! My cousin from New york has it, and it's in my blood too. It's my passion, my favorite, it's all that I do. So now I have to do it, and just take a LEAP... I know what I'll be...I'll know what I'll dooo!!! (all that was in song btw... haha XD)

I have a passion..a talent..a gift..a..a..well..you get the point! =) I, LiL MiSS EPiC, am a GRAPHIC DESIGNER! I'd like to start calling pianoman117.blogspot.com my sister site, but it's not...it's like...my partner in crime site..haha XD Anyways! For my partner in crime, I decided to help him out a bit with his blog. I made him a cover photo for his facebook page!!
I made this cover photo for:
pianoman117.blogspot.com and for
http://www.facebook.com/pianoman117?fref=ts
He loved it! I was sooo happy! I worked on it for around 10 minutes..I could've finished faster but umm...I had to get suggestions and see if he liked it through the process and stuff. I had to find out what he wanted on it, and I actually had him change the name from "A Glimpse of Day to Day Life for the Gentle Giant of Rigby" to "The Daily Tower." It all works out, and looks good, am I right? =)

http://www.facebook.com/inspiringmyinspirations?fref=ts
and for lilmissepic.blogspot.com...this post i guess. =)
Anyways! I've been thinking..It's been since NOVEMBER since I updated my blog's look and it's been a while since I made my Facebook cover photo..SO! I decided to update this blog's look! Like the clouds? =) Yeah..I absolutely love blue..but I couldn't just change the stripe's color or anything..it looked too much of a subtle change...I had to change it more than just that! So yeah that's what I did! And here is our new OFFICIAL LiL MiSS EPiC Cover Photo! Hope you guys like!

ShoutOutofTheDay:
James Facer: Hey James! It's been a while since I've left you a shout-out but here you go! I was kinda wondering if you'd let me be your sister-site or something like that! I could figure out a way to link your blog to mine-but your site is your own and so is mine..We're just like...sibling-sites. something like that! haha =) Anyways! Think about it, and message me when you can! Hmm..i like the sound of it! The Daily Tower and LiL MiSS EPiC come together as siblings! ^_^ Pretty awesome!

SongOfTheDay: Defying Gravity by The Glee Cast



ANYWAYS! I love you guys! Let's try hard to pull off a great year, and get more likes on my facebook page @ http://www.facebook.com/inspiringmyinspirations?fref=ts

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Elbows!!!

Okay. Today was NOT too bad! Gave some friends cookiedough. (Of course. ^^) and so far, everybody is loving it. =) BTW! I'm maintaining a perfect 4.0 for my grade average. =) Yay!
Math: Ugh. SUPER boring...we went to the lab did some computer work. Braxton and I are racing to be ahead.. yeah. I'm winning. =) when we went back to the class, we took a pretest on area and perimeter..only ones I knew was rectangles, squares, triangles, and Pentagons..everything else was like: huh? So today was confusing in Math.
Technology: Not much to talk about...other than me going on Bing and looking up what the popular posts are for the day. Haha one of em was women on fire yesterday, but today it was Emma Watson and this old host. Can't remember his name. Haha
Choir: absolutely terrific! I love Mary. The whole class we were communicating with each other from across the room. =) giggling like idiots half the time. Haha
Science: Me, Dawson, Ryan, Bethany, and Cody all did this thing with the length of ten meters and we had to see how many meters per second we could all go. Only one I remember was Dawson went 4 m/s. =) because he's epic that way. I didn't notice until today, but Dawson jumps when he runs...so I guess it's like speed skipping with a distance.
English: doing this research paper on Henry the Eighth...getting a bit behind. We're supposed to have forty cards, and Dawson has twenty-something and I don’t even have ten...sometimes I wonder how he managed to pull that off..especially because I seemed more concentrated than him.
Kay.. so Dawson and I were standing around and then Isaiah, Marcus, and Chris all come up and start to talk to us. Isaiah started talking about something dirty and I was finally like: Eww. Okay. I'm gonna walk away now...*realizes she's holding hands with Dawson* and Dawson is coming with me. So I walk away with him and is just me and him and none of our friends and then I realize that when we hold hands he has to Bend his elbow. (Because he's short and I'm tall) I thought to myself: hey. What if I bent MY elbow? And so Dawson and I kept switching it and it looked weird when my elbow was Bent. Haha...anyways. the gate opened and he walked me to it, and then we hugged and then kissed. =) and I walk away realizing..that was the 20th! Yay! ^^
Anyways! That's a recap of my day. Hope you guys enjoyed. =)
Song of The Day: Come On Get Higher by Matt Nathanson.
Shout Out of the Day:
Braxton: Kay..idk if you even read my blog, but you are so awesome! Thanks for putting up with me and listening to my daily drama.

Saturday, January 5, 2013

The Key to Understanding

Okay. So I'm sick in bed still...and well...I kinda wanted to vent my emotions about my very close friends who broke up recently to you guys.

If you're in a relationship, and you feel it's too much for you at the time, then yeah...I think it's right for you to break up with the other person. However, by telling the other person that you are done being with them, but you still care can be the wrong thing to do. Instead of doing something drastic, I think if I were in that situation, I would've told the other person that: One. I can't handle a relationship right now. And, Two. I still want to be friends, and I still care about you. If you put lots of thought into a situation like this, then I think after it happens, you'll know what to do. Anyways, if I was the person being broken up with, I'd probably be miserable too..but only because I couldn't understand... The key to understanding is putting yourself in someone else's shoes.

Okay. Right now, I'm not trying to tell you what to do, I'm only venting and giving my advice at the same time, so please don't get the wrong idea...I love you all, and I wouldn't want to seem as if whoever reads this blog has to follow me or whatever.

Okay...so I actually figured something out recently. It kind of links to my life last year, and I think it's fairly interesting...

The way he used to look at me...the look like he truly cares, the look in his eyes. I see that same look again, but in a completely different person. I never thought it was possible... to get this person to love me back... but he does...and it's so weird...I can feel myself looking at him the way the other guy did... I can't really comprehend all my feelings, but all I know is that I feel amazing when its just him and me. Or even when I get lost in his eyes.

Anyways...yeah that's honestly how I feel up to this point. Just thought I'd share a bit of my understanding with you guys.

Song of The Day: Bubbly by Colbie Caillat
(With a little shout out: Sunshine, I really want you to know I care about you a ton. <3 you know who you are. Iloveyou.)

Shout Out of The Day:
Austin(Bob)Myers: I try my best to understand and to help. Just know that I'm here for you, and I'll try to give advice the best that I possibly can. I love you!

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Sudden Reverse

Hello world! Okay! I just downloaded an app called Blogger. Lovin' it. I'm using my MP3 to post, and you know what that means! MORE POSTS! However, it'll be a bit harder to get emphasis on here..so I prefer the computer especially because I can actually TYPE. Also...I can't really get color on here...so I guess you guys will know what I'm using. No color=MP3 which kinda sucks..but I guess its alright. Also...cant rearrange pictures so no pictures either. =(

Some of you guys up at Rigby junior High are probably wondering why I didn't go to school. Well there comes a time in everybodys life where you get super dizzy, super tired, and super out of it...so I decided to take a break today..kick back and relax...after all, I've been super stressed lately...with school that is. Turns out I've got a B+ in my English class. It's really bothering me because I feel the need to get straight A's..and thats what I got last trimester, but this trimester has been SO much different... I'm relatively good at Algebra, but I have trouble with Geometry...and in Science I'm getting confused easier...good thing I've got Dawson and my friend Bethany to help me out there... still...its like life has suddenly reversed on me...all my strengths are becoming weaknesses... it makes me wonder "maybe I'm sick because I'm stressed."  Oh well I guess...life does go on.

Song of the Day: 1000 years by Christina Perri
This song just has a lot of memories attached to it...lately I've hated this song because of that...but now I love it..knowing that I've come so far and that that song has been involved with my life is pretty dang amazing...so I've learned to be thankful for all the music in my life.

Shout out of the day:
Mary Landon: I'm so grateful to have you as a friend. Thanks for the chocolate..and FYI, that's not what got me sick. Girl, you are amazing. I love you more than you think I do. <3 Keep being silly, and keep being you. Everyone loves it.

Okidokiloki! Thanks for reading my blog, and once again please don't forget to like my facebook page: Lil Miss Epic. BTW. I labeled it as a book.  Thanks you guys! Peace out!

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

New Year's Eve Pictures!


Hey guys! I know it's been like...forever since I've posted! I've been SOOO busy lately. you know...with my end of the world party, and my step siblings coming over for the holidays... It's a little hard...with all the drama and crap going on in my life. With the new year, I feel like all my old problems are starting to go away, but I'm getting new problems instead. For instance, lately, me and Dawson have been fighting about really really REALLY stupid things. So stupid, that I can't even remember what any of the fights have been about. I just know that we both feel terrible after we do fight, and then we just try to move on from it, and go back to our daily routine..but I can't help but have the memories of the fights in my head...and how I wouldn't reply back, and we'd sit there and just think to ourselves "Ahh...can't we just end this already?" (by end it...i mean end fighting...it's like we're gonna commit suicide or break up...) Other than the fights, Dawson and I have been doing great. We started using nicknames and stuff like that... =) it's fun, and it makes me feel better about myself...in a way! hahaha Anyways...Yesterday we took family photos, but I took the liberty to take some by myself...so I took about 16 pictures of myself the other day...that's how beautiful I was...hahaha just kidding..My sister was prettier..she looked like a model. Here...Have some of the edits I did, and took...but also..have one of me and my brother. <3

This is me and my brother, Erik, who is leaving on his mission
March 13, 2013. I'm going to miss him so so much.

Absolute FAVORTIE picture of 2012...I love this...and
you guys can totally see why..I just..I look..AMAZING.
Do I always look this good? hahaa...in my mind:
Absolutely not.

Dawson said this was his favorite picture that
I sent him yesterday...I like it too, but you
already know that I like the previous
picture wayyy better.

This is me and my stepsister, Sarah. Sarah is actually the one
who figured out how to wave my hair in the first place, she
just french braided it after I had taken a shower. =) I have to
say that she did a MARVELOUS job. I love it.

For those of you who have NO clue what's happening
in this one...Sarah is just finishing the sign language
mime for "beautiful" so i just took a picture while she
kept her hand there.

We love Nerdglasses. haha =)

Took this as soon as she was done with her makeup.
Turned out great, huh?

It was so beautiful when I got home from
family pictures..so I decided to go outside
and enjoy Winter while it lasted...plus it
was beautiful while i was out there, so
I took pictures. =)

This is my backyard.

It actually wasn't all that cold outside
in the evening.


Kinda posted some of these pictures out of
order, but it won't let me rearrange them, so
this is actually the first picture I took
New Year's Eve.


This is me and my stepbrother, Adam..He's
grown so much! He used to be way shorter
than me...but not anymore! See the height
difference?

Well.. he loves to photobomb, let's just put it that way.

Not one of my favorites, but I thought I'd
experiment a little bit with softness on the
pictures.

We're nerds. It's true. =)


I took this picture because I was trying to
apologize to my boyfriend, because I
had thought I did something wrong, and
I later found out that it wasn't my fault at all.

My favorite picture of me and Sarah...it just looks
so calm and serene. I love it. =)
Okay! Now it's that time of day where we do the daily stuff that we do! hahaha =) You know what that means...probably...maybe not! oh well!

Song of The Day: Glad You Came by The Wanted
I chose this song because it won #1 song on the countdown on the radio. (Z103) We counted down from 103, and got to number one and this was it! I actually sat down and thought about it..People come from everywhere to America to try and accomplish their dreams...Well, it sure looks like The Wanted did what they "wanted" to do! =) Congratulations to them. =) Same with One Direction, because they're cool. =)


SPECIAL SHOUT OUT OF THE DAY:
People of the world! I have big big BIG news! Okay...some of you may have figured this out already..but I have a page on Facebook that needs some likes, and I was wondering if THE PEOPLE OF FACEBOOK could go to my page...It is called Lil Miss Epic. (As my blog is named obviously) GO there! and clickith the LIKE button. PLEEEEEAAASE?! At this point I'm desperate! I've had the page up since December 16th, and the only one who's liked it is CHELSEA MOORE! and I kinda...commanded her to do that...I think you guys get it! If you like my blog, and want to hear more from me, I think it's best if you like that page...because I put up Songs of the Day and Shoutouts, and how many pageviews i have, and I post pictures, and I'm TRYING hard to do a song of the day everyday on my page..=)


ANYWAYS!
Thank you all so much for reading my blog! it means a lot to me! Until next time, and the time after that i guess...PEACE OUT.

Monday, December 17, 2012

Cutting Out Negativity

Hello everyone! As you may know...I'm having a little bit of difficulty with James right now...and with a couple of other people. I just wanted to post a public apology about how sorry I am for posting negative things about them... Next, I wanted to say that I honestly don't think I should be worrying about people like him anymore... After all, I'm not his girlfriend, so why should I even care? Since it's negative, I'm going to cut it out of my life. As we all should do... I was just trying to get my thoughts out of my system, and all my current emotions. I didn't truly mean to offend anyone or be a bully. So I wanted to apologize to a couple of people. First we have, Kathrine, aka Kat. On my last post, I ended up calling her a whore...I only think that she's a whore because of what I know about her, and what other people in my life have called her...but now I realize that that was really hypocritical of myself. After all, I did freak out when James' family called me bad names when they didn't know me either. Next, we have James. To be honest, It's kind of hard to apologize to him when I feel like I didn't do anything wrong...but I feel like I'm mad at him because he went back to Kat, which he promised he'd never do...Kat seems like a really bad person to be around, and I can't help but continue to worry endlessly. Hopefully, this worrying will stop. I guess my worrying will stop when I truly stop caring. If I stop talking about him, writing about him, and thinking about him, It will eventually happen.

I'm going to try to leave him alone...as best I can anyways...If he wants to be friends with me, then I don't really know what I'm going to do yet. I'll try not to talk about him on here anymore, unless it is completely necessary. Same with Kathrine. I'm super sorry for being such a bully and posting something on here to offend, and make you guys never want to read my blog again.

Song Of The Day:  Breathe by Taylor Swift
Taylor Swift has always been very clever with all the songs that she writes. To be honest, I feel like I can really relate to this one more than some of her other songs.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

My Life In A Jar- First Entry

Okay! So...every once in a while when I don't have anything to really talk about in my journal and on this blog, I'm going to pull out a little something I like to call "My Life In a Jar!" My life in a jar is a jar that is filled with questions. TONS of questions. So! What I'm gonna do is enter in the questions in a RED font, and then enter the answer in a BLACK font. Sounds epic, huh? Anyways! Here we go! *draws first question*

What do you do that gets you into the most trouble with your parents? How do they handle that?
What's this "into trouble" you speak of? I'm doing actually pretty well with my parents right now... However, I'm not doing so good with my biological father...He and I are mad at each other, and we're in a big fight. He's mad at me because I have a boyfriend, and he thinks that my boyfriend is distracting me from what I need to be doing..Schoolwork. He thinks I need to break up with Dawson, and re-prioritize to make school my number one priority. The funny thing is that we had this argument directly after he congratulated me for getting straight A's all of last trimester. If you even know who I am, you would know that school is my priority one. Obviously, my dad doesn't know me as well as he thinks he does.

What is your greatest joy? Your greatest sorrow?
(For those who haven't read December 1st's entry..read it real quick) November 30th was freaking amazing...i was full of joy. Hanging out with Julia, Gabby, and Dawson was the best. haha. Are you kidding? my greatest sorrow? Hmm...I know I said I was over it, but my greatest sorrow was when I SAW James kiss Julia. I was totally broken. I was confident that he would never do that to me, but then he did...I was broken...I never and never will have the same trust in him ever again. Because when you cheat on someone...you can't take it back, no matter how much you want to.

If you could be an animal, which would be? Why?
If I were an animal, I think I'd be a cat because cats are playful, smart, AND lazy...Like me! However, I hate cats...but cats hate cats too, so it's a perfect fit, right?

OKAY! PURPLE FONT BECAUSE I JUST WANTED TO GET YOUR ATTENTION AND SAY THAT WE'RE DONE WITH QUESTIONS!

Song of the Day- Still, Still, Still
I chose Still, Still, Still to be the song of the day because today I joined our ward's choir, and we're singing it! Plus, in Rigby Junior High choir we're singing it too, but they are both different arrangements... I still think that Still, Still, Still (aka the snow carol) is an AMAZING song though. It makes me happy.

Shout-Out of the Day- Marlee Lords!
Marlee! You're so amazing! Don't worry...I won't tell anyone your secret. ;) Okay! I'm super glad you got me to join the ward choir, and help out the sopranos! I have to admit I was pretty bored in there though... no wonder you wanted me in there...to ENTERTAIN YOUR FACE!! =3 Anyways...i love you!

Monday, December 3, 2012

3 Classes With Him

The start of a new trimester! For once, I was totally comfortable in each of my classes. Here's how it all went down. =)

Math- Okay, I wasn't so sure when I moved into Ms. Kelsche's class, but she turned out to be really really nice. I didn't want to move out because I adored Mr. Brown, him being my favorite math teacher. Kelsche is still pretty cool though, so I'll be able to manage especially when I'm sitting next to Braxton...FOR NOW.

Input Tech- TECHNOLOGY! I knew I had some friends in that class...but when I walked in I thought to myself: I KNOW EVERYONE! There's Cora, Sienna, Isaiah, Tressa, and Kenzyl. This trimester, I don't think Mr. Williams will be able to shut me up. However, I'm a gg(abbreviation for good girl) so it could happen.

Choir- I was super nervous about this class at first because I don't think I do well in big classes and in crowds. However, I was still able to be my funny old self, and stuff. I told a ton of people that I had a blog today, I also said that I had a fake family Mary. Choir's a lot of fun so far especially since there's a lot of my friends in that class. I also learned that Burrows hates cats, and thinks short people are awesome. haha =) Dawson's in my class! YAY.

Science- Oh gosh...Mr. GREEN?! I was freaking out! Mr. Green is usually super super strict, and I've never really enjoyed having him, so since I was nervous Dawson started telling me information about the class, and I got more "Ok" with it. Yet, when Dawson got the iPads for our group, I started getting really nervous about making the movie trailer. I didn't know how to work the thing! We chose the movie trailer option: adrenaline. It was really exciting! Bailey made me and Dawson in charge of drawing the subatomic particles and stuff, and we all came up with ideas, and Bailey came up with what to write on the inbetween slides where it says the explanation of the movie. Anyways, what confused me was that Dawson loves to draw, but he really didn't want to be in charge of drawing in class.

English- Okay...my THIRD class in a row with Dawson. =) So happy about that. I was ALSO super nervous about going into Mrs. Baker's class because she's super strict on PDA, and I just happened to be sitting next to my boyfriend in that class. I just hope she doesn't yell at us for it after she eventually realizes that that one day I was the girl that Dawson was holding hands with. Anyways..Mrs. Baker has a VERY interesting way of getting know each other with games and stuff. I have to admit that it was fun though. She had a game where you had to say of what she was thinking of, if you got it right you got a spray in the face, if you took too long, then you'd get a spray in the face. haha =) but if you got it WRONG on the other hand...NOTHING happens. haha

OKAY. And here's what happened after school! =)

Dawson and I were going to the bus gate, and stuff, and when we got there I just talked to my friends, and tried my best to avoid Chris because I knew what he'd want Dawson and I to do: kiss in front of him.
Chris: Bek! Get over here.
Bek: No.
Chris: Get over here now. (he says in a strict tone)
Bek: *awkward wimpering sound as she walks over to Dawson and Chris*
Chris: Bek. Kiss Dawson.
Bek: Why?
Chris: Because.
~interuption~okay..i feel super retarded because I don't even remember what Chris and I said after that because I was looking at Dawson. haha
Bek: *eventually says okay* *hugs dawson*
Dawson: *hugs bek back*
Bek and Dawson: *kiss*
Chris: Holy crap! They just made out!
Bek, Dawson, and Marcus: hahahaha
~interuption~ i still can't remember what happened after that...but I think I just talked to Bethany and Cheyenne.
*gate opens*
Chris: you guys should kiss again.
Bek and Dawson: *hug* *kiss again*
*BEK WALKS THROUGH GATE REALIZING THEY HAD JUST KISSED TWICE IN A DAY!* *Bek's thoughts are all like: ohmygosh ohmygosh ohmygosh ohmygoshh!!!*
*Bek gets on bus.*

ANYWAYS! TRAAANSITION!!!!

I get home...and as I was trying to open up the gate at my house...it wouldn't work. I wondered: WHAT THE FETCH?! I GOTTA GET IN!! IF I DON'T IM GONNA CRY like REALLY bad. In panic, I started  honking our car's horn hoping that someone would come out and HELP me with the STUPID FREAKING gate. I was starting to get angry, so I decided to TEXT my boyfriend about this. He was all like: Bek! Just climb over! I was like: I don't have the physical ability to do that right now! The gate's too tall anyways. I then realized that there's this odd part hanging off of a hole next to the handle thingy on the gate. I thought...I NEED TO GET THAT THINGY OUT BECAUSE ITS BLOCKING MY WAY. I hadn't recognized the metal thingy before...so I knew it didn't belong there. Eventually, I figured out how to get that metal thingy out. I was pissed off though. I KEPT that metal thingy with me when I walked into the house, I slammed the door, and threw the metal thingy across the room, and my stepdad was all like: Get back here and put that metal thingy back into the gate! I was like: NO! As I walked into the bathroom and slammed the door again. Sitting in there...haha...I realized...ITS NOT MY FAULT! I went back out there to yell at my stepdad some more. I got the stupid metal thingy from my stepdad without a word, and put it back into the gate. I walked back into the door, slamming it behind me, and I ran off to my room as Reino, my stepdad was all like: REBEKAH! COME. HERE. I was like: NO! As I slammed my bedroom door. I then told my boyfriend what had just happened...even though I knew he was gonna read this blog post. haha.

I guess that's a total re-cap of my day...even though I left out the part of me talking to my mom about this...it's just that....I forgive...WAY too easily..but sometimes..I can hold a MAJOR grudge.

SHOUT-OUT OF THE DAY:
Bailey Page- Okay...you're iPad skills are AMAZING! I didn't think our movie trailer would look that good. Thanks for the great communication skills with me and the rest of our little group. I know that you probably don't read my blog, but if you do, this shout-out is dedicated just to you!! Thanks for being awesome.

SONG OF THE DAY:
Beauty and a Beat by Justin Bieber.
I don't usually enjoy listening to Justin Bieber...but with this song, I really enjoy it. Don't ask me why, but I'm truly not a "Belieber" or what whatever his fans are called. Heck, I'm not even sure that I'm spelling his name right right now! Sienna Wareham suggested that I make the song of the day a Justin Bieber song soon...so I decided to take her advice, and do what my "fans" want me to do.

If you read this blog today...and enjoyed it...I want you to go to school tomorrow or whenever you can, and reccomend my blog so that I can get more people into...umm...well...my life...and reading!  I know of a few people who have read my blog, and they don't even know me, but they enjoy it. Posting this blog, makes me very...happy, and I feel like I'm not hiding that much anymore. Thank you for those viewers who are reading everyday. Thanks to all of my "fans" I have 323 page views and counting! However, December 2nd for some reason got 35 page views. Again, Thank you.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Klub Karaoke

Okay! So last year..EXACTLY. My favorite place to go closed. It was called Klub Karaoke. Me, James, Julia, and Mary would always hang out there. It was our favorite place to go sing and dance at. =) Then we found out it was closing, and so we got everyone together at Klub Karaoke. I remember it well actually... James and I had gotten back together after he had cheated on me, and I was having a hard time not being emotional. I felt like I was gonna cry, but then he put his arm around me and everything seemed okay. I couldn't cry in front of him. I just couldn't. So I didn't cry. I remember slow-dancing with James. I remember kissing his cheek for the first time ever. Haha, I feel so girly talking about this..but it's what I felt, and I want to be honest about it! I remember the last song we sang together. Billionaire. That was the last song we actually sang together, just me and him, and I have to admit that it was an amazing memory. I remember when I saw James sitting on the floor drawing a heart with our initials in it, and how he had put my initial first, because I apparently always come first according to him.

Things have changed though...

Now I'm with my new boyfriend, Dawson. I know he loves and cares for me a lot... maybe even more than James did back then. I know that he just wants the best for me, and even though we're opposites, we can still agree on a lot. Especially our feelings towards each other. Even though there's no more Klub Karaoke to hang out with him at, I still have lots of fun when I'm around him.

OKAY. I feel so obsessive right now! I'm gonna stop right there before this becomes TMI.

Shout-Outs of The Day:
James Facer- Hey. Thank you so much. I know that you're trying your hardest to get your parents to be okay with me, and that means a lot to me. I hate having all of this on my mind, and in all honesty, I'm scared to listen to the recorded conversation that you have with them. I know in my heart that I'm not gonna get a direct apology right away. That's okay, it might take time for them to be able to apologize. However, I also know that your parents might be a little stubborn, and that I might never get an apology from them at all! Thanks anyways though.
Dawson Hammond-  Can I just say that you're probably one of the most oblivious people on earth BESIDES me? haha, anyways. Since I know you read my blog a lot, I decided to leave you a shout-out to make you feel even MORE part of my life. I apologize for all the awkward things I say on here about you though..because I know about that feeling that someone out there is writing about you. It's okay though, because I bet it makes you feel just THAT much more loved. ^^ I love you. <3
Jules!- Okay...I don't really know you that much, but I know that you go to my school, and that you read my blog. I know for sure that from what I know about you, you are a super cool person, and fun to be around. From the moment I heard your singing voice, I got super jealous I have to say. I hope you get into the talent show! Your voice sounds AMAZING. Tell me if you want to hear a cover of my own. Friend me on facebook please. haha =)

SONG OF THE DAY- 
Every time We Touch by Cascada.
I was listening to this song, and thought... This makes me REALLY happy. I LIKE IT. Have fun. <3 =)

AND AS TOBY TURNER ONCE SAID: IF YOU SNEEZED WHILE READING THIS, BLESS YOU. PEACE OFF!

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Movie Night Memories

Okay. Let's do a little recap on what happened last night.

I went to Julia's house for a movie night with Dawson, Gabby, and her. I was excited because for one, i get to see my boyfriend outside of school, and the two I get to see my friends! Movie night has always been super fun, but I thought this one would be kinda awkward because Gabby and Julia didn't know Dawson. First off, I'm not even gonna talk about the Avengers. even though we all went over there to watch it, we all got bored. Sure it's a good movie, but we all get super distracted at movie nights so this movie was super super long according to us. When we first went downstairs, we were just sitting around while Julia played Just Dance on the Kinect, but then I realized that Dawson and I were sitting clear across from each other on the opposite sides of the room. Being me, I decided to get up and go sit by him. It was a little awkward at first, but then we coped. A few minutes passed and my hand was on Dawson's. Trying to be funny, I told him: "I'm going to keep staring at you until you do what I want you to do." and then he realized that I wanted him to hold my hand. haha. =) NEXT, we went upstairs and watched some YouTube  TOBUSCUS and Gir were pretty much all we watched... besides two videos of Jenna Marbles and one episode of Teens React! Okay, so I felt a little bit awkward because I had two fold-up chairs behind me pressing into my back, Gabby told me to lean on my boyfriend, but I didn't want to make things awkward and be a clingy girlfriend. So I didn't at first. But then after a couple of minutes I started to, and then I ended up putting my head on his shoulder, and like hugging his arm. haha. I have to admit, he looked like he thought it was all a little bit awkward, so I just held his hand...but then my OTHER arm refused to let go of his...so I ended up hugging his arm like the whole time almost. It was time to go home! Dawson needed a ride, so Reino and I took him. We sat in the car pretty much, and then I was reminded of another time where I gave James a ride home.

(Flashback to way back when: Okay, so we had done this festival thingy for choir, and decided to go eat pizza afterwards while we waited for our parents. I had said goodbye to James and stuff, and then later I found out he still didn't have a ride, so I texted him to come to 5 Buck Pizza and eat with us. So, he did. We ate pizza, and chatted a little bit, and since he needed a ride, I asked if my mom could take him, and she could. So we took him home. It was silent, in the car, and pitch black...I was wondering if that was the moment I would've told him how I truly felt about him, but I decided not to. We got to his house, and he said goodbye, and walked away.)

Flashback at 5 Buck Pizza
Squeezing Dawson's hand tighter, I remembered how James had cheated on me with Julia. I remembered the pain I had felt when I saw him kiss her...but then I scooted closer to Dawson and glanced at him. I thought to myself: I'm over it... I forgive him. We arrived at Dawson's house, and then this commercial came on about like getting an engagement ring and stuff. haha. It said that the guy had better make his move and give her the ring, I laughed and then I hugged Dawson, and then we like backed out, and then stared at each other for a minute and then kissed. I haven't kissed anyone since...maybe March, so this whole kissing thing was still kind of new for me. As he hopped out of the car I thought to myself: holy fetch..I was his first kiss. =) I felt amazing, and then I jumped into the front seat. haha Reino had seen it all in his mirror. He was like: so that was you guys' first kiss, huh? and I was like: yeah. =) The rest of the night I thought about how awesome this experience was. It sure replaces a bad memory with a good memory.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Walking Inside a Purple Snot Monster, The Blot

Here's the word to describe my day: LONG. I didn't really do anything today..However, I did kind of do some stuff. I decided to talk to my parents about what happened with Mandi and Phebe, and they totally agree that I'm not the one doing stuff wrong. After that, I just kinda sat around and didn't do anything.

Then, my mom showed me the microscope she bought to look at dog sperms and stuff. I was pretty excited to see what they looked like! We looked inside and saw all the tiny little sperms. It seemed like there was a million of them in one drop. We zoomed in, and the sperms were all shaking and some were moving around. Something I couldn't stop paying attention to however was that whenever I looked in the microscope I could see my own eyelash. I never realized how many eyelashes I had until today. HAHA

I then talked to Dawson and stuff for the rest of the day. My day was pretty boring actually. But here's something I did ALL day: PLAYING EPiC MICKEY!!!
First off, I finished the rocket and stuff, and had gotten inside this tower that Oswald had told me to climb. So i started to climb the stupid tower. There were chandeliers EVERYWHERE. I decided to use that to my advantage. However, the blot had these stupid tentacles that kept pushing me every which way. After I had climbed the tower, there were these gargoyles that I had to paint, and then use my spin move to make it so that their light beams hit the crystal in the middle. However, there was one really bad obstacle...THE BLOT. The blot was there the whole time...IT TOOK FOREVER to get all the stupid gargoyles turned around and hitting the crystal with their beams. Just when I thought I was done, THE BLOT hit me and then I had to start over!! -_- After I finished turning around the gargoyles and stuff the blue light hit the blot, and then the blot flew away. Then we got a shot of Fireworks being aimed into the sky, and Gus told me to head to THE NEXT tower, and then Gus was like: I don't think the next one will be as hard...Anyways, after I climbed that tower, I got up to do the exact same thing, except for the bridge was half-broken, and that the blot spewed enemies AND tried to attack me every 5 seconds! I finished in one piece...I was relieved, and then I found out that there was ANOTHER tower. I got out of that tower, and then started climbing the next one. As I started up, I found it really really easy. But then I got locked in a room with a huge enemy with two smaller splatters. I quickly thinned out the smaller splatters, and then painted the huge enemy, and exited with one heart left. As I get up to where the Blot usually is to attack me, nothing happens...and I start to get a little bit worried. I carry on, and paint all 4 gargoyles as I turn them around to face the correct way. The building shakes, and the floor falls from under me.  THE BLOT WAS ATTACKING! Every 5 seconds the floor fell again, taking me down to the bottom...At least I didn't have to climb that tower again! I was on my way down anyways! We were about to get our little machine thing ready to shoot the fireworks, when Oswald sits there with Ortensia frozen in a statue...Mickey and Oswald start admitting their confessions while Gus was changing the batteries of the stupid remote. As Oswald and Mickey were about to shake hands, the Blot comes out of NOWHERE, and scoops up Oswald! Gus comes out and he was all like: I HAVE THE REMOTE! And then the Blot scooped him up too! Mickey, being brave yet stupid and all, WALKED RIGHT INTO THE BLOT! I literally got up out of my seat and screamed: MICKEY, ARE YOU STUPID?!!!! I was IN the blot..I've always been super scared of the blot, so this was HUGE news...I WAS IN THE BLOT! I walked through without a problem...it grossed me out because the walls were dark purple, and it was like snot in there...and EWW. Turning a corner, I'm greeted by Gus. He says he's okay, and that we needed to find Oswald, and get my heart back before the Blot goes into the real world. I just paint all the fat splatters that sit around and explode all day until I see some Bloticles!! I kind of freaked out because these bloticles weren't only blue! they were blue and black! I started to pop the little zits on the huge bloticle I found, I went into the little pathway, and then I found some blot-corrupted-cartoon-characters! I started to freak out, and attempt to use my paint on them! HOLY FETCH...THEY KILLED ME IN TWO HITS WHEN I HAVE ALL MY PIPS! These things were like zombies, I couldn't kill them, or make them friendly...I couldn't do anything. They were two quick. Then I had a strategy...PAINT THE BLOTICLE'S ZITS FROM AFAR! All i needed to do was stay on a different level then the blot corrupted characters in order for me to not get killed. After I had popped every zit on the stupid bloticle, Gus explained that the cartoon characters that were blot corrupted disappear whenever you get rid of the bloticle that was in their area. When i got back into the main area with my heart in the air surrounded by a cage of bloticles, I saw Oswald attatched to a wall! I tried to speak with him, but it was like he was painted onto the wall..he didn't even move...This is when I decided to quit playing for the day because I was really cold because I usually play this game downstairs.

Why? It's a Long Story...


Okay, so lately people have been asking me MANY MANY questions. SO, if you want to know more about my life, here's what you probably need to know to understand about half the things I do.(this might be a relatively long post, guys.)

It was the fourth of July and I was texting Mandi about her relationship with her parents. All of a sudden, she tells me that she has to walk to the parade. After tons and tons of explanations of what was going on with her and her parents, I came to the conclusion that she had just gotten kicked out of her house. After we made a deal a couple of months ago that if she ever got kicked out I would give her a place to stay, I found the reflex to go pick her up, and take her in. I picked her up after she discovered she had no cellphone service. She was in tears, I hugged her and told her it was going to be okay. We then went into the park, she didn't even want to do anything. All we did was walk around with water bottles that I had bought us. I suggested what I wanted to do, but she was so controlling and just did what she wanted instead...walk around and do nothing and have me follow her. This is when I noticed she's not a true friend. Sure I understood that she was going through a rough time, but that doesn't give her the right to treat me like crap. It was time to go home, Mandi kept refusing to get into the car, but we eventually got her in. When we got home, it was time to do some chores around the house with my step-brothers, Adam and Andrew. I started pouring cleaning fluid all over the floor so that we could mop it up, and so then we mopped it up, Mandi kind of did it with an attitude though. She really didn't want to be there... After we finished, she FORCEFULLY took my phone, and then started texting pretty much every guy she knew as she sat on the top bunk of my bunkbed. It was then time to go to see the fireworks, Mandi didn't want to go with us. but she did because she was forced to because she was going to live with us for the time being. When we got to the fireworks show, we set down our stuff, and then asked if we could to go the park because Mandi wanted to show me something. Of course having awesome parents, they said yes, but to be back before it got too dark. I agreed, knowing what she meant. We got to the park, and all she did was walk around and do nothing, just like before. I was starting to get confused. Plus, Mandi still had my phone...was she stalling? What was she texting people about? How boring I am or something? I had so many things going through my head. I started mentioning heading back to the ditch where my family usually is. She said she wanted to stay in the field like normal people. i said i wanted to go and be with my family and obey the rules, and started walking away not caring if she was following or not. By the time i was completely out of the field, I realized i had just stood up for myself the first time against Mandi. I was so proud of myself. She was behind me, with kind of watery eyes. She wouldn't speak. We got to where my family was, and then we sat down, I asked her if I could have my phone back. She asked why, and I said because it was my phone, and she's like WHY DO YOU NEED IT? and i was like: ITS MY PHONE. She started to tuck it into her pocket, and then i jumped out of my chair, and started to get it out of her pocket myself. She hit me and said: DON'T TOUCH ME! I said: "then give me back my phone" in a serious tone. She took out the phone as it vibrated, and started deleting every message on the phone...after she finished deleting CONTACTS off the phone, I finally got it back, checked the time, and put it in my pocket to watch the fireworks. Every time I tried to make a comment on a firework, Mandi was there...Silent and watching the fireworks with tears in her eyes. At the end of the show, she turned to me and commanded that we took her home. I automatically thought we'd take her there and then she was going to go find some other friend to stay with instead of me. No. NOT HAPPENING. I asked over and over: Are you sure? What do you think is going to happen anyways? She always replied with stuff like: I don't know. or Who cares? As we take her home, I get tears in my eyes as I imagine what could happen to her, what her parents will say to her. I give her one last hug, and she gets out and walks up to the front door, and walks in safely with not a comment.

One day, I was sitting around(during the summer) and then all of a sudden, i get a phone call from some unknown number...Not knowing whether I had made the right choice, I pick up the phone and say hello, and then I hear...his voice. I hadn't talked to James in forever. It was amazing to be able to hear his voice...I started to cry, and then had him tell me about what's been going on in his life for the past month or so. He had to go, and so we said goodbye. That's when I really broke down into tears. I had a complete emotional breakdown, and needed someone to talk to. I decided to call my best friend at the time, Mandi. Yet, she didn't pick up, so I needed to find someone else who was available to talk. I decided to talk to my new friend, Coleman, about the situation and emotional breakdown that I was having. Coleman and I talked it all out, and then I was totally fine. Then Mandi texted me asking what was wrong, and then I told her and she was just kind of like: okay whatever. How was I even supposed to reply to an "Okay whatever"?! I knew right then she didn't care about the situation, so I didn't think much of it when I posted on Coleman's wall thanking him for helping me out with it. Then...it started.

Rebekah Phillips: Hey Coleman! Just wanted to thank you for helping me out with that emotional breakdown! It means a lot to me, thanks! =)
Mandi: You talked to him about that and not me? Not cool.
Coleman: Hey no problem Bekah.
Rebekah: Mandi, I tried to talk to you about it, and it didn't really work. How am I supposed to reply to "Okay Whatever"?
Mandi: That's childish of you, I'm not going to fight about this over facebook.
Coleman: Mandi, it's not a big deal!

Mandi then Un-friends Coleman and I on facebook causing he and I to be in constant worry for the passing months. Around August, Coleman called me and we talked about a conversation that he had with Mandi that made him really really sad. (I can't really remember what they talked about...)

Mid-September, I decide to confront Mandi saying: Hey, it's your ex-bestfriend. Why do you think I hate you? I don't. Why do you think I'm spreading rumors about you? Because I'm not. She replies with: Who is this? I reply back with It's Rebekah. Mandi and I really really needed to talk this out. Who knows? Maybe this could save our relationship as bestfriends. Mandi and I start to talk and stuff, and then she basically says that everything is my fault for what I posted on facebook about having Mandi overreact to what I had said to Coleman. I told her I needed help and advice from other people. She said that she's getting called a slut, and that she needs to go die. I told her straight up that I had never said anything like that. I told her that she could even ask my friends if I would say such a thing, and they'd say no. At the end of our talk she just asks me: So does this make us friends? I said: In a way, yes.

School comes around, and then I find out my friend, Kaleb is dating Mandi. I felt pretty great about this because I've known about his crush on her for a while. My friend, Chelsea, found out that Mandi's been telling everyone that she's dating this guy at our school named Caden. Kaleb had no idea about this guy named Caden, so we decided to tell him. He was pretty devastated  but seeking advice, I decided to talk to Coleman about it and see what he thought. I left out some words when I talked to him about it though. I basically told him that Mandi was cheating on my friend Kaleb with Caden. I had no reply. The next week, I go about my daily life thinking: What's Mandi even thinking? Oh well, I'll just leave that alone. Then all of a sudden one day, Phebe Murray comes up to me and starts threatening me. She told me that she would effing kick my effing a word, if i didn't effing leave Mandi the eff alone.I told her I was leaving her alone and that Mandi and I hadn't talked since the halloween dance. Phebe then told me she saw the conversation, as I was confused, she walked away. My friend, Jarron stood up for me though. He said: Rebekah would never say that! She'd never talk bad about anyone! Jarron turned to me questioned me for a minute and then he was angry. Later I found out Phebe Murray had threatened Chelsea the same exact way. There was no way Phebe was going to get away with this without getting reported. Chelsea marched down to the viceprincipal's office and since he wasn't in, she left a note on his desk saying why she needed to talk to him. Chelsea pretty much just told the vice principal that Mandi was harrassing me and her using Phebe. Phebe denied everything and didn't get in trouble. However, Mandi got kicked out of our school thanks to Chelsea! =) I was glad because I knew she hated me.

A couple of days later, I get a reply to a text I had sent Mandi. Mandi had told me that I was the one responsible for everything going wrong in her life. Her skin cancer, her scars, her rumor problems, everything was because of me. What have I done to her? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. The things I've been doing while Mandi has been quote-unquote SUFFERING? Okay, well I had an emotional breakdown, that's all. I just wanted to talk to someone else about it because she wasn't there at the time. By the time she contacted me, I didn't need to talk it out anymore. Next? I felt hurt by the way she overreacted about me talking to Coleman, and decided to post some of my feelings on Facebook. After that, I went to school with my friends, and met a new best friend, Chelsea. (oooo i'm such a bad person for getting a new best friend. -_- *sarcasm*) After that, Mandi started going to my school, and automatically some one starts rumors about her. Mandi assumes everything bad that has happened was me. Mandi tells Phebe about what bad people Chelsea and I are. Phebe cusses/threatens us to leave Mandi alone. And she's expecting me to feel sorry for her? There's no way in heck that I'm going to say "Oh Mandi, I'm so sorry for all the trouble my actions have caused you. Can you ever forgive me?" NOT HAPPENING. She just needs to look at the bright side of life, and stop being so selfish towards others.

Two days ago, I was just relaxing in my 5th hour class when all of a sudden, I got called into the vice-principal's office. Curiously, I started to walk down there. I didn't know exactly why I was getting called down. Could it have been because of Mandi or Phebe? Oh well...I was about to find out. As I wait outside of the Vice-Principal's office in a desk, certain people pass by and their thoughts are: What the fetch? Bekah doesn't usually do anything wrong. My friend, Kayla Phillips starts to question me through looks. Kayla walks past all the way, and then backs up slowly, and looks at me. She lifts up her hands and shoulders in confusion, and then I do the same. We did this to tell each other we didn't know what was going on if you couldn't tell.

I then walked into the vice-principal's office. The first thing I see? The resource officer. I was starting to get a little shaky...Why was the resource officer in there with us? I look over to my right, and see Phebe just sitting there. Here's how it went...

V-P: So Rebekah, Where were you this morning?
Me: School. Cafeteria tables talking to my friends.
V-P: Did you ever go into the bathroom in the cafeteria?
Me: No.
V-P: Phebe, did she?
Phebe: She did. I promise you.*nodding head*
Me: *shakes my head in dissagreement*
(thoughts: what the fetch? the bathroom? What happened in the bathroom? What's going on?)
V-P: Rebekah, did you ever see Chelsea this morning?
Me: Yeah I think so.
V-P: Where were you when you saw her?
Me: Well, the bell to go to class had just rang and she wanted a hug, so I hugged her.
V-P: Where did you hug her?
Me: The trailer right in front of the cafeteria just off to the left.
V-P: Where did you go next?
Me: my 1st hour class which is Mrs. Dayley's trailer.
V-P: Where's Mrs. Dayley's trailer?
Me: To the right of the cafeteria if you walk out of it.
V-P: Oh so just off to the side?
Me: yeah.
V-P: Okay.
Resource Officer: Okay, one of you is lying, and one of you is telling the truth. Do any of you want to change your stories?
Me and Phebe: *shakes head in disagreement*
Resource Officer: You do know that you're liable for my time and having to pull out the footage of that bathroom right?
Me: I guarantee you I was never in that bathroom at all today.
Phebe: She WAS.
Me: No.
Phebe: YES.
Resource Officer: Rebekah, do you know what has to happen if I find out if you're the one lying?
Rebekah: Am I going to get suspended?
Resource Officer: No, you're going to get expelled if we see you in that tape at all. Do any of you want to change your stories?
Me and Phebe: *shakes head in silence*
V-P: Okay, they're not going to change their stories any time soon. Girls, you can go now.
Me and Phebe: Okay.
Me: *gets up and walks to the door, holds it open for Phebe to walk through*
Phebe: *gets up and walks through the door*
Me: *walks through and closes door*
V-P: wait! come back in here for a minute.
Me and Phebe: *Walk back into the room*
V-P: It'd be best if you guys stayed away from each other for a while.
Me and Phebe: Okay, *walks back through the door*

I started to get angry...What happened in this bathroom anyway? All I knew was that I think the resource officer didn't believe me. She was going to look at the tape...call people in...stuff was going to happen. I didn't even know what was happening! I sit down in my 5th hour desk, silent. I needed to vent my anger to someone. The bell rings...First person I see? Dawson. He seemed like he was in a good mood. I didn't really care though. Sienna walks over, I pull her over away from our boyfriends and start saying everything I knew about the situation. She basically says to me: Don't worry, Bek. Phebe's just a bi***. You'll get through it.We all know you wouldn't hurt anyone.

I then see Chelsea...She's furious. It was obvious...she just came back from the V-P's office to get accused of something. I totally broke it. I was full-on ANGRY. We started throwing information in each other's faces. Still confused and angry, I get on my bus and sit next to Keely and Braxton. Them being confused, I had to tell them what was happening. We sat in a 3-seat together with my arms around both telling them what had happened in the last 10-15 minutes. No one knew what happened. 

The next day, I get called in..I told him what I knew and everything, and then he was like: so are you the slightest bit confused? I was like: I don't even know why I'm in here. He gave me a complicated answer, but I was able to sum it up into english: Phebe told us that you and Chelsea hit her in the bathroom. 
My reaction:  *wtf face* Okay? 
V-P: want to change your story? 
Me: No, because my story is the truth. 
V-P: Okay, you're welcome to leave. I know that you are taking this very well, I'm sure you're not in any trouble.
Me: Okay, thank you. *leaves*
I decided to tell my friend, Caitlin about what was happening between me and Phebe. She then told me an AMAZING bit of information. Phebe had asked Caitlin to punch her in the face and give her a black eye so that she could blame it on some girl. I knew right then, that Caitlin and I had to go back and talk to the V-P about this. So, during the transition from 1st to 2nd hour, Caitlin and I talked to the V-P. She told him the information, and later in the day, she got called in and had to sit there with 2 resource officers. At the end of the day, everyone started asking me questions about what lie Phebe could've came up with. Why it has anything to do with Mandi? Why? It's a Long Story. It's obvious that Phebe's trying to get me expelled because she's mad about what "I did" to Mandi. What did I do to Mandi? I have no idea.

Last night, I was just minding my own business when all of a sudden i get a message from Coleman on facebook. Here's what Coleman said word for word with no bleeping:
"Sooo I hear you like to try to get girls kicked out of school? Are you fucking dumb? Go take Ur dumb friend and lesbian out somewhere else instead of rigby because your retarded and watch my little pony which is a children's show! Don't talk to Mandi ever."

Coleman: you sure make my Mandi mad. Stay out of her life.
Me: Oh yeah? Name one thing that I've done to Mandi.Coleman was like: Spread Rumours.
Me: About what?
Coleman: Mandi cheating.
Me: Wasn't me. Plus, cheating makes her look bad anyways. I'm not the one who did something wrong and cheated on my boyfriend! Btw tell Mandi to leave ME alone and to stay out of MY life. She won't stop sending people after me, and she won't stop harassing me. So I've taken it into my own hands, and decided to block all her numbers and to block her facebook account.

(My thoughts: I don't need Mandi's Drama...I'm sick of putting up with her.)

Song of the Day: Never Getting Back Together by Taylor Swift.
Mandi, we're never ever ever going to be friends again. Deal with it, and stay out of my life.
Shout out of the Day: Mandi Thornton and Phebe Murray.
If you're reading this, don't bother reporting me because FREEDOM OF SPEECH. Stay out of my life, I don't want to deal with any of your stupid drama. Okay? Mandi, quit harassing me. It's not okay, and it's a form of bullying. Phebe, quit making up rumors about me. I know it's you, don't act like you don't know. There's no way I would ever beat you up in a bathroom. Sure, I want to, but all my friends know that I wouldn't even hit a butterfly! ASK ANYONE THAT KNOWS ME. Deal with the drama in your life, and look at the bright side, and maybe you'll get more friends.