Valentine's Day 2014

Warning: This post is all about DAWSON DAWSON DAWSON!

Valentine's Day with Dawson this year was so... sweet! Sweeter than chocolate even though he got me some of that chocolate. Originally, the plan was for him to come over and just sit around lazy all day and cuddle and watch Transformers. I was totally astounded when I saw him carrying in a bunch of stuff from his car. When Reino opened the door for him, he came in with something wrapped in a big ol' blanket and he had a bouquet of roses and a box of chocolate with ribbon tied around it and a key that came with it.

As you can see, what I got I thought to be very special! When he took the blanket off of the other item I found that it was a big TEDDY BEAR!! It's so cute in every way wit a tan skin and a big brown nose and cuddly inside and out! SO awesome!!

I'd love to thank Dawson by giving him a little shoutout in here... well not little, but BIG for my little man. <3 Thanks, babe.

The Winter Ball 2014

I know it's kind of late to be doing a post about this night, but it was so perfect that I couldn't skip over it or ignore it any longer. It all started out as just a lazy day, and I ended up doing  before and after pictures of me getting ready for it all.

When Dawson showed up, Reino opened the door and Dawson pulled out from behind his back a bouquet of roses. He must have been listening to me a while back because at one point were talking about bucket list items, and getting flowers from a guy was an item on mine. The flowers were really beautiful, and my mom was tempted to keep them to herself. My mom even posted a picture of them on Facebook telling Dawson, "Well played." He really knows how to sweep a Bek off her feet. Haha

Before we left the house, we took the usual picture for my parents before we go mess up our looks at the dance. After all, he did dress up a little more than he did for Homecoming. It was a special occasion to be seeing him in a button up shirt and tie.

The night kept getting better and better. I saw a bunch of my friends and we all grew closer from the dances we all shared. For example, I used to not be too fond of Linsey, but at the dance, we grew closer and danced with each other, with no awkwardness at all! Through all the dances with my friends like Tyler, Sienna, Emily, Braxton, Jerika, Kiley, Dawson, and more I actually felt like I was a part of something. Though I am not friends with James anymore, I still am part of multiple groups of friends. I feel like I belong.

Overall, the past week or two have had some important lessons in store for me. I have learned to really put myself out there, in hopes that others will take me as I am. I have learned that friends can be the people that really make a big difference and influence in your life. I have learned that there's a time for friendship, and there's a time for love, and that I shouldn't dwell on Dawson, Dawson, Dawson, when I'm hanging out with other people. Some of these lessons are the lessons that really needed to be learned in order for me to overcome the upcoming year of 2014, and make way for new challenges in this year. What do I say to 2014? It. Is. On.

Q&A ~4 A Typical School Day

It's still January, and here's what you picked for this month's special post: Highlight of 2013 and LME Q&A! Since LME Q&A had more votes quicker than Highlight of 2013, This month we will be doing the Q&A. I think it's better that we just classify the highlights of 2013 as Lil Miss Epic 1st Anniversary: TOP PICKS. That's basically my "top picks" of 2013 overall, starting from "The Key to Understanding." Anyways, I picked some questions at the beginning of this month to pretty much ponder on for the entirety of the month, and here they are! For my next Q&A, be sure to submit your own suggestions!

Tell about your favorite aunt.

My favorite aunt is definitely my aunt Deanne. My mother's sister is the youngest and at times quite easy to relate to. She lives in New York and is a single photographer who is also involved in the make-up business with Clinique, a quality make-up brand. Every year she comes down from New York and brings us all sorts of cool pictures of the life she's built herself up in New York and she always brings a ton of make-up stuff for us girls. All the make-up I own is mostly from her amazing generosity. I share her love for photography, and I hope to apply that into my life, as she does.

Where did you live when you were born?

When I was first born, we lived in Cheyenne, Wyoming. Which is kind of funny, seeing as how my boyfriend came from Wyoming.

Have you met or worked with any famous people?

I have never worked with anybody famous before. Then again, I kind of have. My mom is kind of famous in Taiwan for bringing in the very first teacup poodle. His name is Tino the Fluffy Red Elf. So yeah, I've basically raised some celebrities in my life time.

Describe a typical school day in High-school.

Well, first I wake up and get dressed, brush my teeth, brush my hair, and get on my make-up, and then I wait for the bus while listening to music or watching YouTube, or packing random stuff that I forgot to pack back up. While I'm on the bus, I talk to one of my best friends, Kiley. We talk about random things like family problems and boyfriends, or just random events that happened at the school. When we arrive at the highschool, we greet Dawson and walk in, and I walk to English, and sit through a painful hour of just... boringness. Then, I get to walk to my favorite class, Seminary! Full of inspiration, motivation, and good-humored fun, this class is refreshing! 

After a heart-felt lesson of Seminary, I walk to Biology, usually running into Dawson on the way. In Biology we usually take notes or do a lab. When we take notes I get headaches so easy because she always says uhm like an infant, and she usually raises the end of her sentences, which gets annoying. When the bell finally rings for us to get out of that class, me and Dawson go to eat lunch under the stairs. When we finish eating, we usually go flirt at the top of the stairs and cuddle and just tell jokes and just... be adorable. Interrupting our happy reunion of love and happiness, the bell rings and we head to Troylairs to sing our hearts out. The second sopranos usually have a rough time with the notes, but we usually pull through in the end. Either upset with a day of no success, or overjoyed with the accomplishments we made, I walk out of the classroom with Dawson to head over to our last class together, Algebra 2. In that class, I'm usually too exhausted to not act like myself, and I crack a couple of jokes, or feel like all of the material we're learning is easy. Other days, when I'm upset, I'll be the complete opposite, and I'll be silent and feel stupid with the material. When the bell rings for us to escape the long day, and retire to our houses. Dawson walks me to my bus and kisses me good-bye, and I get on the bus and talk to random people on the way home, usually leading most of the conversations I'm in. And that's pretty much it, except for maybe playing Minecraft with Dawson. Haha

Tell about your favorite school teacher and subject.
Mr. Burrows is a lively choir teacher who jumps around and is for the most part, very positive. Full of a ton of stories and inside jokes, this teacher is just very fun to be around. 

Well that's about it! I hope you thoroughly enjoyed this month's special blog-post! Keep inspiring!

Forever and Ever, Babe

16 months ago today, I asked an amazing boy to try out a relationship with me... That relationship is still running strong. We hardly ever fight, but when we do, it ends instantaneously. Drawkah is the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I couldn't ask for a better man to be with for the rest of my life.

Today I spent the day with my father, and we did a number of things. First we went to the community park in Idaho Falls and walked around for a while talking about random stuff, and how Dawson asked me out to the Winter Ball, and all the fun things I've got planned for the future and we talked about how I'll be out of high school in about 2 and a half years,

We went to the temple and saw the restoration movie they had at the visitor's center, and afterwards we went to Smitty's and I worked on homework while we were there.

It was so fun, but the highlight of the time I had with my father was the conversation we had on the way home. He asked: "What are your life plans?" I said: "Dad... I want to marry him." There was a slight pause, and then I said: "Daddy, you know I love him." He replied with an "I know you do." We ended up talking about religion and how important it was that he goes on a mission. In the end, I know that I deserve a return missionary, but I'm not sure that's what Dawson has foreordained for him. Maybe he's meant to go into the marines, or maybe he's just meant to stay home with me. We don't have a clue... But, I know I want to be with him, and I don't think anyone can stop that. The next time he asks if I love him, I'll quote Adam Sandler from Click and reply "Forever and Ever, Babe."

Testimony On: Choice

Heyyy!! It's my viewers!! I've kind of missed blogging for the most part. Instead of talking about my life, I've bottled it up, giving me big emotional breakdowns and depression for the most part. To make up for that, I'll write on this, to let me show my emotions. Usually, I'd prefer just having nobody see them at all. But since this is more of like a journal, I kind of need to inform my future self of what lessons I've learned here in the present. 

That's why journals are so important. To remind you of all the challenges you've overcome, and the opportunities and blessings you've earned because of them. Those kinds of things make us stronger, and ultimately shape us into who we will be. Making our personalities better or worse depending on what choices we make. Ultimately, we have two decisions: right versus wrong. We all know what the right decision and what the wrong decision is, but we all just automatically assume that the wrong path won't be as bad, and sometimes that case is true, as we still get blessings on that path. However, the opposite path that we chose not to take won't let us get those blessings because we can't go back and re-do what we have done. Perhaps those blessings are greater, then again we were supposed to take that decision as it gets us closer to our Heavenly Father, and the ultimate goal of happiness. Even though we may see ourselves as perfectly happy now, we may never find the true meaning of happiness if we don't take the right path.

Personally to all of us, this is just a maze. We know which way is going to lead us in the right direction, but we get curious when we see some of our best friends go down the opposite way, making it look like the better choice. Which would you rather have? A life full of happiness, but just for now?? Or would you rather have a life with no regrets here and have your afterlife be perfection in the celestial kingdom? I prefer perfection in the celestial kingdom with my heavenly father. I testify that it'll all be worth it in the end, and that we will all gain peace in that aspect. I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

Kicking Off 2014

New Year's Eve. The last of 2013 as it was. I decided to invite a few friends over, but Sienna ended up not coming because I told her she could go to her other friend's birthday party instead because that party didn't have many guests. Anyways, I had Mary and Dawson come over and party with me. We watched Equestria Girls and played Cards Against Humanity, and let me tell you. That night was the most fun I've had in a long time. And to top off 2013, Dawson and I actually kissed at midnight. It was perfect.

Mary. Mary is possibly one of my best friends when we DO hang out. I love to hang out with her, and she's just a really fun person to be around. Seeing as how she laughs at all of my jokes and laughs at nearly everything with me, she's just... a PERFECT funny friend to be with!

Dawson. You all know about him, I talk about him non-stop. But lemme tell ya, I don't think I've seen this kid laugh so much at "Cards Against Humanity." All of our cards combined were some pretty weird things. It was funny! I realized he can pick out anything that sounds like something I would say, and he's pretty much right! He always had some of the funniest responses to my black cards. For example, I would ask: "What ended my last relationship?" and he'd answer: "Men." He really does crack me up.

Combined, Mary and Dawson are two of my favorite people to hang around with. That night was really fun, and I don't think I could have asked for more. Thank you both for making me so happy, and kicking off 2014 to a great start! More parties with these two? Sounds like the way I want to live 2014.

Why I Write...

This is my blog, and I'm writing this to all of you guys who feel like reading about the contents of my life. Truth be told, my blog is a journal written for all to see. I describe vivid thoughts and true feelings. When I get messages telling me to tone down about writing about something-- it upsets me because that topic really is what I think about on a regular basis. That regular basis being... all the time. Nonstop. Not only am I doing this for all those who will accept and embrace what I write, I'm doing this for me in the future. So that I can look back and see.. well.. Lil Miss Epic! All the things I used to write about and it's great for brain processing because I get to stop and really analyze my thoughts and feelings into something we all call... WORDS.

Words are things that we use to describe well... everything! We use words everywhere from street signs to modern day technology. Words are everywhere, and it's amazing that we can use words to convey our thoughts and translate it all into word combinations. Heck, my blog title itself is 3 words. Because our names are words, we get special thoughts and feelings to go with them. For example, if I knew a girl named Stephanie, when I think about her I might think about traits of who she is, and the feelings I get when I may see her. Words as simple as Stephanie, could translate into millions and millions of thoughts. Isn't that amazing?

Back to my blog, what I want you all to take from this blog is your own thoughts and feeling, whether it be about a situation I'm dealing with, or a lesson that I'm teaching you. I hope that you may be able to apply something of what I post into your life. I write this to inspire. To inspire others. But, the greatest feeling of them all is inspiring those I've already been inspired by. The acknowledgement that your inspiration will give you when they say they were inspired by something you said to make their life better, is just moving. It's possibly the best feeling I've ever achieved.

Blogging to me is just an endless cycle, I write to inspire, and when they get inspired that gives me powerful feelings and urges me to write more and more, giving them something to be inspired by once again. In short, isn't that what life is all about? Helping those around you to get better, and learning from them how to better yourself from the knowledge they've gathered is possibly the best thing you could do in your life. That's what we're here to do. Learn from each other.

Here Comes Christmas!

Hello, and welcome to Lil Miss Epic! Sorry I haven't posted in about 21 days, but I would've posted yesterday but hey, I was actually vlogging my school day with Dawson for Gunmen's Girl and our 15 month anniversary. We would've vlogged at the mall too, but hey we were too concentrated on buying presents and crap like that. Besides, we wouldn't want anybody to see what we gave before Christmas! This post is basically going to be a little bit of a catch-up post.

As many of you may already know, I went to Salt Lake City to tour with the Rigby Choirs, specifically Troylairs, but I sang with Women's Chorus also because Mr. Burrows wanted us to sing on their songs. I don't know why, though... They sounded just fine without us. Anyways, but the whole trip was pretty darn fun, seeing as how I got to hang with Dawson most of the time, and stuff. The downside is that part of Women's Chorus was singing on Troylairs songs, but they didn't even have our sheet music, so why would they even be trying to sing our songs? It was honestly ridiculous. During "The Virgin Mary Had a Baby Boy," one girl in our choir was going sharp and flat, and we were so worried about who it was, and worried that it might be one of us, to realize that it was a girl from Women's Chorus. Anyways, this unknown girl sang with us on all of our songs, and it irritated me so much because she kept looking over at Krista's sheet music and attempting to sight read all of our songs without any practice in the first place. The lesson I want to give out to you all, if you are to perform something, don't even try if you weren't meant to do it.

Anyways, more about Salt Lake, we went and sang on Temple Square, and gave ourselves a little bit of a tour of all the lights surrounding Temple Square. James actually ended up adding something to my bucket list. Kissing Dawson in front of the Temple. I blush a little just thinking about it. I can play it out in my head. We're just walking around Temple Square together, and when we see the temple we just stop in front of it and talk about it a little and then say how much we want to be together and then wham! Kiss! It sounds just so amazing. James has probably one of the best imaginations for that kind of romantic junk. Haha! Well that goes to prove that I can still fantasize about this little dude.

Anyways, we get back from Salt Lake and I begin to get really stressed over school work and all the things that I had missed while the choirs were gone. I had missed things like tests, and plenty of Homework, and quite a bit of reading. When I get stressed, my back tends to give up on me and so my back hurts all the time. Well, Dawson knowing the side effects of my stress, decides to lend a hand. He carries my backpack around for me, and when I start to limp on my foot, he piggybacks me to my destination, and when I say my back hurts, we sit down and he gives me a back massage. I really appreciate all that he does for me. Even when I'm stressed about all the love I'm not getting from friends or family, he is able to make all of that up in a heartbeat, and can manage a smile to come to my face. Dawson is so unique, and I doubt I'm going to come across somebody better than he is. I feel like he treats me perfect. I remember back to when I was wondering if he really did love me, and I ask myself now why I ever doubted it? It's impossible for him not to! I'm not saying that I'm the most charming girl out there, but hey! I can be myself around him, and he loves me. I can see it in his eyes, his actions, and his words.

So, yesterday me and Daws went to the mall to go Christmas Shopping! We visited a bunch of stores, and teased each other, and he gave me gift ideas for members of my family. When we went into Hot Topic, I noticed these two My Little Pony shirts that I really wanted. One of them was a  Dr. Whooves shirt, and the other was a shirt of the main My Little Pony cast! As we continued to wander around the store, I payed attention to all the things Dawson seemed to like. When I was just about to give up hope, he pointed at a Vinyl Scratch shirt and said "I WOULD WEAR THAT!" I laughed a little, and then picked it off the rack after looking at what other jacket there was. I noticed a paper on the front saying that all hoodies were $25! I found the smallest size, and held it up to Dawson, and noticed it was a perfect fit. I bought it for him, and when we looked at the price tag we noticed I would've payed $70 for it! What a discount! For my Wonderbolts jacket, I had to pay $75!

After shopping at the mall, we went to my house and watched Deck the Halls and The Grinch, while we ate dinner. After that, we took him home and he came out what seemed to be 10 seconds later to give me my Christmas present. He had gotten me the two shirts that I saw at Hot Topic that I wanted, but he had gotten them ahead of time! He had gotten them way before we even got to the mall! What a clever little dude! xD He knows me way too well! Anyways, he also gave me a plate full of holiday snacks... mostly chocolate centered. Again, he knows me way too well. =)

Prosper in Perseverance

Hello, my lovely inspire-rs. I just saw this absolutely magnificent and fun post posted on our choir's Facebook page. It was so inspiring that I've decided to share it with you guys, and feel free to check up on Doodle Alley whenever possible because from the looks of it, it's spreading inspiration everywhere. I give it my full and total support, and I suggest that you give it your support also.

http://doodlealley.com/2012/10/10/be-friends-with-failure/

Anyways, I haven't posted in a while because I've been competing with Dawson for my grades... The only class he's better than me in right now is Algebra, I have a 95 in the class, and he's got a 96! Unbelievable! I thought I was the one who was good at Algebra. To me, it seems like he does amazingly well whenever I'm in the class with him. He seems to just sit there soaking it all up like a sponge and applying each lesson where he needs to. THAT's possibly the best quality you could get from a student. Now if only I could get right down to it. Is he obsessed with the competition that we're doing...or is he trying to impress me? Oh, the mysteries of  Dawson Hammond continue as we leap in to find out more and more about this kid. I thought I knew him, but apparently I still don't know him enough... Which reminds me of a quote...a quote that he has said...about me.

Well this picture brings us perfectly into tonight's subject.When do we really know somebody? Honestly, if you think about it you never can know someone. There's infinitely many layers to them that we've yet to uncover. Heck, chances are they probably haven't peeled back the layers of who they are. Maybe they don't even know who they are entirely. Sure, we've got the main things like oh, I want to be a graphic designer when I grow up, but that never explains who I am. It only says who I aspire to be. It only says what I want to do with my life. Keeping that in mind, it makes us wonder, "Who am I?" I know what categories I fit into, I know what my name is, but that never explains who I am. Maybe the logical answer to the question is... "The world may never know." Even if we're still discovering our many layers and different parts of who we are. 

Why do we dwell on such a hard question? Purpose! We all want to know what our duty is in life, itself so that we can strive to do the right thing and get it done right just to get it over with. But that's not even the point of life. The point of life is to do the right thing anyways and get through all the obstacles and challenges and persevere. Even if we trip along the way, we're going to be just fine because everybody makes mistakes! We're all learning more and more about agency, the power to choose. And that my friends, is the secret to life in itself. Perseverance through the toughest of times. As a teenager, I know exactly what it's like to sit and wonder "What's my purpose in life? Why am I even here? Ugh, when will this all be over?" But... That's not even positive. If you want to modernize this up a bit and say, YOLO then that's fine too. But if you only live once, shouldn't you be having fun along the way and making the right choices instead of things that you'll regret in life? On lives the saying, but think about what you're doing first and if it's the right decision. Will you prosper in your perseverance and never regret a thing, or will you let yourself down because you're too busy trying to find who you are? Step back and look at the picture...Success or Loneliness. Good or Bad. Perseverance or Indifference? It's your agency. Choose what life you want to live.

New Tri New Attitude

Hey, guys! It's been a while since I've last updated. It's been a time of thinking about what's going to come in the future... a time of getting rid of all the stress in my life, and last but not least a time of celebration with my wonderful boyfriend, Dawson. I know what you guys may be thinking... "Ugh. I hope this post isn't a lovey-dovey post about the life of Drawkah." Well guess what! It's not. I promise. The wonderful world of Drawkah is just one of the amazing things in my life, there's plenty of others.

Recently, we got our 2nd trimester schedules and I'm very pleased with several of my classes. Others, not so much. Like Biology! Biology sounds just terrible, I'm honestly not looking forward to it because of how much I suffer at it. But, Troylairs... OH, this is gonna be fun! My first ever tour with the Rigby Choirs! I'm so excited, so grateful, and most of all so nervous! That's just two of my classes, but that pretty much sums up the entirety of my day, I'd rather not talk about all the boring stuff like Algebra and English and well... no. There is another class that I'm quite excited for. Seminary. I tried to read the Book of Mormon last Summer, as many of you may know. Well, I couldn't do it... there wasn't enough motivation for it. Well, now I've got an energetic Seminary teacher that gets me pumped every time I step into the room. Even though I've had two days of the trimester, I'm pretty sure that it's a good start! For his second lesson, he talked about how huckleberries can compare to the gospel. Since I hadn't had a huckleberry before, he had me and two other students come up to try our first huckleberry. They were okay, but I couldn't get a full impression of it because I hadn't worked to get them. So, two classes to look forward to in the day. Great. 

On the more positive side of things, at least I have two electives to look forward to! Hey, at least I don't have to take Social Studies and Health this trimester. If I did, heck... I'd be stressed out all the time. Plus, I wouldn't get to relieve myself with song. I'm looking forward to seeing what this trimester has in store for me. I'll be missing my other classes like Voice Mastery and Publishing, but now it's time to move forward in my Sophomore year, and get a glimpse of what's ahead in my High School life.

Christmas is in 24 days! I'm so dang excited that I'm gonna be counting down the days and singing Christmas songs anytime I get the chance. Get in the Holiday spirit and get out of your bad mood! It's time to deck the halls, and it's time to get to work.

Grateful for Rebelsea

People these days just want things like popularity and authority. If I were to give up a lot of things that I want and pick one thing that I truly want it would be the feeling of accomplishment through every task. Thanksgiving is coming and it's time to break out the gratitude. However, we need to be grateful for all the things we have in our life regardless if it's Thanksgiving time or not. I'm thankful for a girl named Chelsea Moore. I know she doesn't want me to say her name anymore, but guess what. Freedom of speech. Besides, I'm not the one who started being a jerk. Whenever we'd see each other in the halls, she'd glare at me. Nowadays when Dawson tries to bring her up, I simply say "Chelsea who? I don't know a Chelsea." The other day I found a CD. It was actually the CD that she made for me as a Christmas present last year. With names all over it, hers had names like "Scootz, Chelbo, and Lil Miss Shooter." Mine had names like "Rarity, Bekolin, and Lil Miss Epic." I listened to all of the songs on it and sat in silence as I thought more and more about our friendship and all the wonderful things she had done for me. I looked at the "Rebelsea," poster that I had in the garbage and wondered if there was more that I could do.

I know she hates my guts, but why am I the only one getting the treatment that I get? Why am I the only one getting chewed out for the things I say, when it seems like the whole school is saying it? Chelsea. My best friend. I still check up on her. She never updates her blog, her Facebook has privacy settings on "Friends of Friends" She blames me for talking crap about her when I know it's true and it was told to me, and the people I "told" already knew about it in the first place. She claims never talking about me behind my back, I know that's crap. As if she's never posted about me on Facebook... One post I remember seeing on her wall that one of my friends showed me said that she was mad at her now ex-best friend. That's the deal breaker. Once I saw that, I knew she was trouble and I felt like she never cared after I read all the comments on the post. Facebook is just a way to either rant about your problems or spread the word of inspiration. The better things you post, the closer your friends may be to you. The more aggressive your posts come off as, the more people get annoyed by you. I truly am grateful for the experience that I've had with this amazing girl. I know that she's different. I don't know who this Chelsea-Evelyn Moore is...but I miss Chelbo, my always and forever best friend.

Explode with creativity and get inspiration from your past. Glow more with inspiration than you ever have before. My challenge to you all is to think about a devastating point in your life, and just write about it and what you've taken from the experience. Write how you're grateful for that bad experience in your life, and post it below in the comments if you'd like! Remember to keep inspiring those around you and be the best that you can be!

Harvest 2013

Hey, guys! Let’s start off with a little bit of Lil Miss Epic business! If you have been watching my YouTube channel recently, I’d like to tell you guys a little technical difficulty. I cannot upload due to the stupidity of the YouTube app on my tablet. Unfortunately, my tablet is my only recording device available to me. As I would love to record for you guys and show you all my progress on Minecraft Survival, I cannot. As soon as I'm able to upload videos to YouTube, I'll upload my most recent videos, which were in the loading cycle when it all stopped working.

All right, so I didn't really tell you guys what happened the day of my wonderful blog's anniversary.. aka SATURDAY, the 9th. WELL. We had a school dance, if you didn't already know. I had asked Dawson to go with me, well here's a play by play.

After writing my blog post, I got in the car with my mother and permit in hand to go up my boyfriend, who was just finishing up his drive at Driver's Ed. I was kind of nervous because he's never seen me drive before. None of my friends have. When it was just me and Reino, I did totally fine. Anyways, I did pretty well, and the only big mistake I had made was I turned off the car before putting it in PARK. I felt so stupid, but I was just so ready to get out of the car and spend the day with my boyfriend.

Even though it was nearly noon, I felt a rush to go tutor him with math. We get inside and check Power School for what he needs to makeup to get a higher score. While he does the assignments, I check up on his other grades and then notice how badly organized his backpack is. When pulling out his math book that was supposed to have white pages and a red cover, it was all turning orange. I asked Dawson what had happened, he said some "pastels" had exploded in his bag. I laughed about it as I cleaned out his bag, and threw it in the washing machine. Even when he had finished all of his work, I just kept organizing his stuff. He wanted me to just drop everything and go watch Lady and The Tramp with him, the movie that I had picked out for the day. I kept organizing and walking in and out of the room on a constant basis as we watched the movie. I found the movie incredibly boring because of course, I had missed all of my favorite parts. Dawson thought it was great! He thoroughly enjoyed it, just as I had suspected. If I had just SAT and watched it, it would've been a much better movie for me. Thinking of what to do after the movie had ended, I started to think more about his grades... Here I am, with a 99 in Algebra, and there he sits with a 52% in the same class. I try to help him, I really do. Then, I see all the other classes he takes. D, C+, A(Troylairs... kind of impossible to fail that one...), D, and F. Well... since D's are acceptable now... I shouldn't be too worried, but it's still a good idea to help him get that grade higher. 8% is the difference between staying with me in our beautiful new high school or leaving to go to the Alternative. I have to make sure he's dedicated to his work.

We had tons of fun. From playing games such as Smash Brothers and Glee Karaoke, we had a ton of fun. With Smash Bros, we put everyone's lives at 99, including the 2 CPU's we had... that were BOTH Yoshis. I chose a pink Yoshi, and Dawson chose Link. After a while, Dawson and I just started committing suicide on the game and just jumping off of Hyrule Castle. It was funny to see the 2 CPU's try to battle it out with still 70 lives. We left them alone for a bit, then came back to check every once in a while, with usually a 5 life difference. Oh yeah, and the CPU's had Handicap at 9, making them super hard to play against. The lowest we got them to was 30 lives, then we just turned it off to play some Karaoke on the Wii. It was fun because whenever it told us to "Make Some Noise" we'd make some weird noise. We had too much fun with it. Especially when rapping because most of the time we'd just give up and go mernahmermermerrrr and mutter the rest of the lyrics.

It came time to go to Harvest, we had my mother drive us there at around 8:30pm and arrived to almost literally nobody there. Come 9 o'clock, people started to show up and the party came in the house. Thing is, nobody was really dancing. Everyone was standing around waiting to dance. Dawson and I were that weird couple where you'd see us and he's on my back and we're running around being stupid. When we danced together, I had him flap his wings with me like a chicken because I can't dance. There he is just "yolo-ing" every dance that has people leading it, and he goes up to lead them as well. Like Gangnam Style, he can't do it too well, but he just YOLO's it and doesn't care what others think about it. Harvest was fun as heck. I love going to dances with Dawson. Since it was a Girls Choice dance, I was the one to ask him to dance with me every time. One of the times, when it was a slow dance, I went out to the dance floor and he just ditched me to go talk to some other people. I just kind of danced around in circles with my "ghost" partner that didn't really exist. Noticing that I was "dancing with somebody else," he jumped in to the empty spot that was reserved for him and for him only and said sorry. I started thinking... Where's Chelsea? I continued to look around for the crazy chick and her red-headed boyfriend, but couldn't find them. This was the second dance she hasn't attended...and I know she asked her boyfriend to go with her. Later, to my surprise, Chelsea broke up with Conner, her red-headed boyfriend. I don't know the reason, but I felt bad for him because he sat there reserved by her and didn't even get to go to Harvest because she broke up with him. Poor guy.

With the night advancing in constant fun, I started getting tired. Dawson's parents came to take me home and as soon as I got home, I took a shower than layed down. Drawkah had planned an all nighter... I wasn't so sure I could do it. He called me and I picked up, as my usual self and we talked about how much fun we had. I turned off the lights, and layed down again and put in my Bluetooth. I closed my eyes a couple times and to my surprise, Dawson was saying "I love you" and I wouldn't even realize until he had said my name a couple of times. Imagining a conversation that wasn't even happening, I started talking to the Dawson I heard inside my head about the weather. I said stuff like "Yeah, I know." and "No." and he'd say "I love you" or "I miss you" again, and I would continue not to notice until he said my name a couple of times. It got to the point where I was saying the most bizarre things. The most bizarre thing by far would have to be, "Do I turn left at this intersection?" It was completely random because I remember he told me something, and I said wait... what? and then asked that. It was so bizarre and random that it was one of the things we might remember most about what happens when I get tired. I don't know how far it went on until I fell asleep but I was exhausted. 

Harvest was by far one of the most fun and party filled days I've had in a long time, and it was very refreshing. PRAISE FCCLA for doing such a great job with the decorations and making the dance possible. I love you, FCCLA.

Just a selfie today, up top. Because I'm gorgeous and stuff.

Lil Miss Epic 1st Anniversary: TOP PICKS

Wow! Not only is it my blog's first anniversary, but we've reached 7,000 page views! THANKS Thanks to Sienna Wareham's special vote for what topic was going to be chosen for today, I'm gonna be talking about my top picks for my blog! Let's put it this way. My blog's been like a timeline to me, for how it's been during certain points in my life. Even though it's been just a year, I can still piece each post together. Here are my top picks!

Embarrassment
"Embarrassment" is the post that got everyone excited about "Lil Miss Epic" as a blog. It was my first post ever and showed my audience my casualty. Complete with a list of what I planned out for my blog in the future, I've stuck to it very well now that I look back at it. "Embarrassment" was a perfect start for my blog. I wouldn't have it any other way, especially since "Embarrassment"got a total of 50 page views in one day, without my advertisement.

The Kissing Attempt
"The Kissing Attempt" showed the first real contact of Drawkah and the friends surrounding it. Not only did it show my real emotion, frustration, but it was fun to read because it was relate-able. Dawson later of course felt bad about the situation, but at least I got a laugh out of my audience. What an amazing post to start out the relationship of Drawkah.

Why? It's a Long Story...
"Why? It's a Long Story..." is a blog-post about none other than the difficulty of losing friends while you grow up. Not only has this story proven what has happened with just one person, but it's also shown what has happened with another one of my best friends. To be perfectly honest, I was missing both of them for the longest time. But, I've let go. This post I would definitely nominate as the longest post. If I wanted to rename it, I'd rename it The Backstory.

Movie Night Memories
"Movie Night Memories" Is just a story about a girl and a boy's first kiss. Let me rephrase that. Drawkah's first kiss. Not only did I give a play-by-play of our behavior around each other, but I also gave back story of Jakeah(James and Rebekah) as a couple, and how things are different. This post is the best way to describe the transition from James to Dawson. From Hurt to Healed.

But that's not all folks! That was just 2012... There was MUCH more than just 4 little posts. This was the opening era of Lil Miss Epic.

The Key to Understanding

"The Key to Understanding" was what I consider the first Truly inspirational post to come out of Lil Miss Epic.I had several people coming to me saying that it was amazing. "The Key to Understanding" was what made me live up to my title, inspiring my inspirations.

"People Can Change"
Looking back at this post, I had a breakthrough. This post is all about how The Law of Attraction really works. It even explains perfectly my situation right now with several people. I love this post, dearly. Not only is it just about the law of attraction, but it's about assuming things.

"No Matter What"
This post... It shows how much I worked to get into our choir, Troylairs. How much thought and dedication I had put into anything. I knew that I would get in at the end of it, and to be honest, it was a growing experience because it added onto my testimony of the power of prayer and the law of attraction.

"Breaking Stereotypes & Fixing Things"
This post was one of my top picks because of one memory of Dawson that was said in this post as well.When I'm at my lowest points in life, I hear "I'm Right Here." in Dawson's voice. It's so comforting, and it's something that I'll always remember.

"September Dreams Come True"
This night was possibly the best night ever because it was Dawson and I's anniversary. It's always fun to just look back about how lucky I am to have such a wonderful boyfriend. The lesson of this post? Be grateful for all the things that you and your friends do with each other. Memories are the best gift, get the most of it.

"Those Two People"
This is my last top-pick, but it's definitely a post that should be remembered constantly. Sienna and Dawson are the only two who haven't ditched me. They're such great people. I love both of them so much, and it shows the gratitude that I have for both of them. Appreciate who you have.

There you have it, guys! My top 10 picks... Of course, it's more of a timeline of the the top ones that connect the best, but hey. IT WORKS. Don't question my ways. ;)

Help Me Celebrate!

Hey guys! I just wanted to update you guys on what's been going on! So, I bought some tickets to the Harvest Ball, a T-Shirt dance that we're having at our High School on Saturday. I recently realized that ALSO on Saturday, is Lil Miss Epic's one year anniversary! I wanted to celebrate but wasn't sure how I wanted to do it. I came up with a couple of ideas of blog posts I could do, but I wanted to give you guys an opportunity to celebrate as well. Give me a challenge or a question to do, and I'll try my best to fulfill your wishes. However, if it's something I would be COMPLETELY uncomfortable doing. Anyways, I'm excited. If you can't come up with anything to challenge me on or a question to ask me, I'm accepting votes on the following blog post ideas:

--Growth since "Embarrassment"
--I am Grateful for My Blog
--Tribute to Inspirations
--My Top Picks of Blog-posts

Anyways, yep! Saturday's going to be kind of a party day for me anyways because of the Harvest Ball, but with my free time, I'll be thinking of you guys and the support you've given just by reading it, or even skimming through my blog. I love you all, even the ones I hate make me stronger and I thank them in the end.

What's the Secret?

Hey everybody! It's almost been an entire year since I've started this inspirational blog! To gain inspiration and be filled with even more wisdom, I decided to read a very special book about empowerment in general. Many of you may have heard of this series and the books surrounding it. The Secret. I used to think, yeah I know what it's like to be grateful, I don't need to read a book about "The Magic" of it all. About a week later, my mom set this book next to me... "The Secret to Teen Power" I kept just glancing at it... Wondering why my mother was getting so obsessed with the series. I noticed how it said Teen...over and over again. It was written for teens! Flipping through, I saw motivational quotes and stories from other teenagers who have used The Secret in their lives. I started at page one and it talked about all the lovely things that we all thought when we were kids and how we could still obtain it all. Anyways to sum up what the book is about, it's an empowering book about the law of attraction. Some of you may already know what I'm talking about. However, if you don't know what I'm talking about I would seriously recommend this book. I knew about the law of attraction, but I didn't know that it applied to everything that we do. The book teaches how to use the law of attraction in everyday life and how to obtain true happiness and love. It addresses many of the issues that teenagers in general have. Anyways, the quote that swept me off my feet was on page 48 of this lovely book, I've dedicated a picture to it.

Anyways, The Secret? It's an AMAZING book. If you're a parent reading this blog, BUY THIS BOOK for your teenager. They'll love it if they're interested in improving their life. ANYONE could read this book and gain something from it. I recommend this book for EVERY teenager, especially if you like this blog. Let me tell you this, my blog posts are about to get a lot better because of the way this book has influenced and moved me. And that's my experience with The Secret.

And here's the new cover for November!!

Here With Kitty&Kitty

Today was pretty epic. I sharpied my face so that I would look like a kitty, and then I sharpied Dawson's face so that we'd match. We were so cute together. After school, it took a bit, but I finished my book report that I needed to finish due to the fact that it was due the next day. Anyways, I had things  to do and couldn't attend any of the parties that I was invited to this evening. Last minute, we heard Dawson was in town and about to just walk home by himself because he had given up on his party plans because nobody was showing up. Refusing that he walk all the way home, I got in the car and drove to where he was. Since I have my permit, I can do that more often and come to the rescue. We sat at my house and watched Ghost Busters instead of him having to go home.Every now and then, I'd add onto what I was working on with schoolwork though, along with checking things off on my To-Do list. It was still an amazing night because we made it one. We took our time to make each other smile and have fun. It's not about what you're doing, it's about who you're with. This is why my love language is Quality Time... It's because I feel this happy when I'm with him and only him. When we get one-on-one time. When he puts his phone away and tells them that he's with me and that he can't talk at the moment. It's so sweet of him to just be with me.

We had fun and it was well worth my night. I had actually been missing Dawson a lot more than usual that night and wanted some time with just him and me. Thanks to this Halloween, I was able to get that time. I missed him so much, and it was great to finally just spend time with him...and just him. His eyes, his smile, everything about him drives me completely wild. I could have spent time with some of my other friends, but I really needed this time with him. I was stressed to the point that I realized I wasn't quite myself anymore and I was angry most of the time.He's such a good boyfriend though. He accepts me for who I am, even though I'm pretty weird and crazy at this particular moment. He's here by my side no matter what. Even if I'm wrong, he still stands with me because we're each other's equals. We come to an agreement, and do whatever is best for us as a couple. It's not just how adorable he looks, it's everything about him. Believe me, I know all about the girls who would give "anything" to be with him...but I would do everything. I would do the impossible. I would cheat death to be with him, if it were my decision. He's mine. A message to all the girls out there that are crushing on him, he won't be leaving ANY time soon. We've been together for 13 months and 11 days as of today, so get over it.

This is especially for Dawson... This is for all the work we both have put into the beautiful relationship that has grown to be us. Drawkah used to be just an idea of happiness, but now it's much more. Drawkah is more than we could have ever imagined. Drawkah is true love, true happiness, and in all honesty, the best thing that has ever come into my life.

Why I DO NOT Do Vlogs

Hello, my wonderful viewers. My YouTube channel? Yeah, it's been quite a success. I'd like to thank Dawson for all the help he's given me with starting up my channel. If you'd like to get a link to my channel, well, here it is! My first couple of videos have basically been me starting to play Minecraft. It's helped a TON with me getting to the point where me and Dawson can bond even more over things we do and have fun with. A lot of you didn't think I'd be going into a gaming channel, most of you thought I'd be doing vlogs... Thing is, why would I do a vlog? Getting out deep feelings would require me to sit down and write it out instead of sitting down, with the pressure of a camera, and saying it over film for the world to see. Some might say that I like to sit behind the computer and pretend like someone else. Thing is, that is completely the opposite. I'm more myself than ever when I'm on my blog writing for you all to see. I know that if you care about what I have to say, you'll check it out for yourself.

So I was talking to James about my love for Dawson, basically... and I came up with this quote... made by me of course. Obviously, it's about him.. I don't think it could be any more true due to my feelings.

UPDATE: My stepbrother now has a blog! The Dark Lord Fluffy has been "inpspired" by the work I've put into my blog. He's now got 2 posts up as of the 23rd. Check out his blog soon, if you'd like. I'd totally recommend checking it out.

The Dark Lord Fluffy is inspirational too! Here's what I found very inspirational.

Here's some more advice that might be helpful.  Be yourself.  Don't change yourself to try to fit in.  being yourself IS what make people fit perfectly in with their own groups.  If you change, and it is fine, do it because it will make you a better person.

I have this long story and the main point was I changed because I realized that the person I was, wasn't who I wanted to be.  I changed to become a better person.
-The Dark Lord Fluffy

When The Flowers Die...

I love my boyfriend, I really do. He's always so nice to me, and so sweet. Today I was having a hard time with my family life. He was there to help me. I was crying because I missed my brother so much,(today's his birthday) and Dawson said that he knows that I'm strong, and that I can make it through the next year and couple months. Other than a trial with missing my brother, who is now 20, I had a trial to overcome with my father. We got talking about plans for the upcoming holidays, and he was complaining about how he doesn't get me for Thanksgiving, when really, he had me over last year for Thanksgiving. Anyways, Dawson helped me with that! I'd just like to thoroughly thank him for all the stuff he's done to help me. He could tell, all of today, that something was wrong. He's been there for me all day. Thanks, Dawson.

When me and him sang, it really cheered me up because it got my mind off things, and the fact that I was actually comfortable singing with him, strengthened our relationship. He's so sweet. He reminds me a little bit of my brother because my brother will stop at NOTHING when something's wrong with one of his friends. He's always there for everyone, with all of his inspiring quotes, and sayings.. so now here I am.. with my blog, hoping to find a way to match up to him. So that me and him become equals, in a way. I love my missionary. He's so spiritual.

Those Two People

It's time to be strong... We've gone into the dark. However, there's still light no matter how strong the darkness may be. I can already tell that I'm in the dark with all the stress that I have in my life... I'd like to reach out and thank two very special people in my life that have been talking to me, understanding me, and loving me for who I am. Those two people in my life are Sienna and Dawson.

As you all know, I talked more about Dawson in the last post, but he's honestly there for me. One night I couldn't sleep, I didn't know what to do, and I was sad because I felt like he was taking me for granted or something. I messaged him on Tango saying that I had a nightmare. I didn't expect him to reply, but suddenly, I did end up getting a reply... He asked me what happened, and I heard his voice. The voice he used when he was truly concerned. I told him about my nightmare, and he said it wouldn't ever happen in real life. He even apologized for being such a jerk in my dream... He told me how he felt about me, and it made me feel important again. He said "Honey I'm your loyal and trustworthy boyfriend, I'm never ever gonna leave your side you're too important in my life. Better yet, you NEED me and I see that i love you too much to leave you we will never split. I don't care that you're emotional all the time, bay. You're more important than anything or anyone." When I'm lonely, and feel like he'd do okay without me, I'm going to look back on all the sweet things he's said to me, and just remember that he does love me. "Hun I would die for you for you to live, would shatter if you left, would do everything and anything for you." If this isn't love, then what is it? He says he's not even thinking, he's speaking from his heart, and he says his reason is to protect me and make me feel loved, and do anything for me. When will I ever get any of that again? I feel so lucky to have someone this brilliant. It's brilliant that he feels this way about me and only me.

Sienna. Ever since I met Sienna, I knew there was something odd about her that separates her from all the other people that I know. I wonder if it's her look, her attitude, or her personality. Thing is, it's none of that. It's the hope she gives others. It's the inspiration and the advice that she offers. As I mentioned in Not The Breakup Story, she's the friend I've always hoped for when dealing with trials. She's such an amazing person, and now that I think about it, I don't know if I do enough for her. When I needed her, she came for me, but am I there for her when she needs me? With a true friendship, each person has to level out their dedication. To be perfectly honest, when I asked myself the question this morning, who is my best friend, I automatically thought Sienna. She's such an important person in my life. A while back, after we made up Hate Me... But Why?, Sienna sent me this text that honestly made me appreciate her so much more than I already do. I wrote it down because she said that I need to keep it...because it's something that makes our friendship so much stronger. Wednesday, July 10th at 11:32 pm "Please. Remember this. Even if I get mad at you. I still am your friend. No matter what I say I don't mean it if it is hurtful. Positive things I do mean. Please never forget that." That is proof that she cares. THAT is proof that she's there for me whenever I need her. That tells me that no matter how much she wants to kill me, she still loves me to death. Sienna, I want to honestly tell you that I feel the same, and that message you sent me has impacted me a lot, and shown me a lot about friendship. Thank you.

Song of the Day: Into The Dark by The Lighthouse And The Whaler

Friendship

The Scootalooser has constantly lost a bunch of respect from me, but does that mean I hate her with all of my being? No! Of course not! For all the friends that ended up being like her... The friends that are just like Mandi. Sometimes you just have to let go of them, even if they are your friends, because they don't do things that you can be okay with. In retrospect, this is the case. I don't want to be around someone who thinks sex and drugs is okay. I especially don't want that person to be my best friend. Even with multiple interventions, when they don't change, they obviously don't want your help, and I can't be friends with somebody like that... She's gauged her ears! That's not something the Chelsea I know would've done without influence from her new-found friends. Look, I don't know if it's just jealousy or something, but Chelsea is just not the same anymore. She even knows that. They've changed her, and they know it. It's like they changed her into what they wanted in a friend. In my honest opinion, it looks like peer pressure got to her.

Why did the same thing have to happen to me again though? First Mandi, and now Chelsea? The last thing Chelsea wanted was for her to be a Mandi. Every time she made a mistake, she'd come out and say that she was sorry and that she didn't want to be like Mandi. There's more friends out there for me though. Friends that will stick by you, and friends that are phenomonal friends for the moment. I don't hate Chelsea, in fact, I love her. But when I'm not comfortable with her decisions, how can I support them? It's important that I'm there for my friends when they need me, but it seems like she doesn't need me. It seems like she doesn't need me at all anymore.

It's sad... All my friends end up fading away..with the exception of one person. Marlee. I know I don't really mention this incredible girl very much, but she is someone I've known since the days of Primary. Not only was she a friend made in my early years, but she was my very first friend. Oh boy was I lucky when I had found somebody that represents the qualities of a perfect friend all wrapped up together into one. She truly is amazing. It's not just her amazing social skills, it's her magnificent singing, her remarkable wit, and her hilarious comedy that makes her overall 20% cooler. Gimme a like if you know that reference.

There's the one that's like a brother to you...Gavin.
There's the one that's always bound to get a laugh out of you...Mom
There's the one that's rush to you, when you're devastated and out of hope...Sienna

Then there's the one that's always there... The one that you can't even get rid of even if you try. That person for me, as you can probably guess, is Dawson. When I'm sad and nobody can tell, he knows. When I'm crying alone in a dark corner, he knows. Not only does he know, he helps. From a simple "I love you" to a paragraph filled with words inspiring me to look on the bright side, he fills my heart with happiness. Not only does he make me happy, he makes me feel loved. Even though he's my boyfriend, he has all of the qualities I see in a best friend too, besides the kissing parts. Aside from all the beauty in Drawkah, Dawson is an amazing best friend. He's my best friend. He's always there for me even when everyone else has ditched me. He'll always be by my side, regardless of whether I'm right or wrong. He's amazing, but he denies it just to tell me that I'm perfect. He's my best friend.

I'd like to thank all of you that have made this blog possible. Special thanks to The Daily Tower for inspiring me to make this blog. Thank you all for the likes, the follows, and most of all, reading! This is our 100th blog-post so doing this on friendship took a lot of guts because I had to come out and say exactly what I thought about these people. Thank you so much for reading, and let's hope the next hundred are filled with inspiration.